Suicide Blonde.

Tears.

2011-12-15T12:45:00.001+08:00

It hurts when you have to let go the one you love.

Manusia tak tau malu.

2011-12-08T21:00:00.003+08:00

Kali ini entri berbahasa melayu. Terlebih dahulu aku (kasar sgt tak? Ihik) nak minta maaf kalau BM aku tak berapa nak bagus. Course aku jarang guna Bm ni tapi tak apa lah, aku tetap cuba ! *wink.

Pernah tak korang ada kawan yang suka reka cerita? Yang kalau bercerita semua benda nak gempak je tapi sebenarnya tak pun. Kalau ada award boleh kot menang number satu. Aku tak nak lah cakap yang aku ada kawan macam ni. Tapi kawan-kawan aku pernah lah juga mengadu pasal spesis-spesis ni. Suka ambil kesempatan dekat orang. Minta simpati sini sana dengan cerita acah acah sedih and real dia tuh. Aku sebenarnya menyampah dengan spesis-spesis macamni. Ni namanya tak hormat orang. Kita elok-elok kasi dia muka konon macam kesian lah dengan life tadi tapi last last dia pijaknya kita. Mula-mula cerita pasal benda ni, lepastu benda lain pula. Dekat orang lain pun macamtu juga. Contoh macam, "Mia, haritu kan ayah aku balik dari Paris belikan aku bag chanel!", "Eh Peah, minggu lepas ayah aku pergi rome dia belikan aku MAC banyak gila!" and "Nak tau tak Suraya, 4 hari lepas ayah aku pergi London dia belikan aku bag LV dengan jam original yang harga beribu!" Then last last bila semua ni makan satu meja dok bercerita pasal dia, mula lah timbul situasi ni "Eh dia cerita dekat aku lain. Dia cakap dia..." "Eh mana ada, dia cakap..." "Apa pula, haritu dia cerita..." Haa kan dah kantoi. Tambah pula bila cerita dia jenis yang tak masuk akal punya. Rasa nak tampar je. Bak kata kawan aku lah.

Kawan aku sorang ni cerita yang kawan dia ni suka menyusahkan orang. Konon dalam kelas faham apa yang cikgu ajar siap cakap "Aku dah belajar dah ni dekat tution. Senang je". Tapi bila cikgu kasi kerja rumah, dok terkial-kial tanya kawan macam mana nak solve the problem. Bila cikgu kasi kerja kursus, bukan nak ambil kisah pun. Last minute baru nak siapkan. Kerja yang di buat comot pula tuh. Isi-isi penting langsung tak ada. Apa yang kita minta, lain yang dia kasi. Budak tadika pun boleh kasi apa yang dia kasi tau. Betul punya tak berguna kerja dia. Kawan aku juga yang kena baiki ayat-ayat dia and tambah sikit-sikit. Tak ke sakit hati? Kesian kawan aku tidur lewat sebab nak siapkan kerja kursus yang markahnya 20% untuk SPM. Yang dia tuh, entah apanya yang dia buat dalam bilik dia tuh. Bila kawan aku marah, dia buat suara manja and muka innocent dia "Sorry lah. Aku confuse sebenarnya pasal tajuk ni. Aku cari cari tak jumpa". "Haram jadah! Aku cari jumpa je?!" Kata kawan aku.

Yang sorang lagi ni pun kesian. Dia dapat yang suka berlakon. Kalau boleh hari-hari lah dia nak berlakon. Pernah dia cerita yang pelakon ni berlakon sakit macam nak nazak tapi lepastu boleh pula terkinja-kinja. Kawan aku juga kena bersusah payah tolong spesis ni tapi lepastu dia yang pening kepala sebab tak faham dengan perangai spesis tuh. Kejap okay kejap tak okay. Attention seeker lettew. Bila tak dapat perhatian mula lah dia berlakon. Siap keluar air mata lagi. Lagi-lagi bila dia bersalah tapi nak get out of it, dia menangis, mengadu and cerita yang bukan bukan pasal hamba Allah yang bergaduh dengan dia tuh. Orang-orang yang tak tau apa apa atau tak kenal sangat hamba Allah ni akan percaya lah semua cerita yang pelakon yang bakal menang Anugerah Skrin yang akan datang ni cakap. Pasti! Tapi bila hamba Allah ni dapat tau, dia tak buat apa-apa. Dia ignore je sebab dia tau kalau dia lawan balik, dia akan di cop tak matang. Dia tau dia lebih bagus dari tuh. Kawan aku bapak respect gila dekat hamba Allah tuh. So dia pun ignore pelakon ni juga.

Akhir cerita, kawan-kawan aku ni semua ambil keputusan untuk menjauhkan diri dari spesis-spesis ni. Kawan tetap kawan cuma dorang tanak lah lepak selalu atau share secrets dengan spesis ni. Just kawan-kawan biasa je. Perasaan bengang dan hasrat ingin tahu tentang life sebenar spesis-spesis ni sentiasa bermain di fikiran kawan-kawan aku ni tapi dorang fikir, kalau Allah nak tunjukkan satu hari nanti, dorang akan tahu juga. Bagus kan? :') KALAU aku lah kan ada kawan macamni, aku akan buat benda yang sama kot. Aku akan jauhkan diri and stay close dengan kawan yang boleh dipercayai je. So awak-awak dekat luar sana, yang pernah came across people like this, aku harap korang bersabar lah. And tak usah lah buat kawan. Dia bukannya hormat kita pun. Bazir masa je and buat dosa je sebab nanti kita akan sentiasa irritated dengan dia akan akan keep on kutuk-kutuk dia so... Yeah. I hope I make my point here. To those people yang rasa dia tergolong dalam spesis entah apa apa ni, berubah lah. Kalau tanak rasa penampar atau tak nak kena pulau, baik berubah. Before terlambat.

Update!

2011-12-06T03:53:00.001+08:00

I got a lot of hot stories to share but I can't seem to find a time to type it :/ I'm in my stress week now since finals is in 4 weeks. But I will try my best to share my awesome new stories :-D

Assholes.

2011-10-24T05:32:00.007+08:00

Everything in this world are not meant to be ours forever. Same goes to friendship. Some friends appeared only to teach us a lesson and some friends are born as an asshole to fuck your life up. I hate that kind of friend! I hope those people got a taste of their own medicine. They should double up the dose too.

To me it is just not fair when you spent your whole life building up something and this asshole came a long and ruin everything. He/she will go about making up stories about how nasty, horrible, irresponsible, flirty or any other words or gossips that can ruin your reputation. Sometimes he/she even told people about the dark secret(s) that he/she swore to never reveal it to anyone. Have you ever had this asshole as your friend before? If no, go find one and experience it yourself! Your life's going to be marvelous. You will never feel secure again (lie). But if you are a strong boy/girl, hang it there and gather up all your energy and strength together so that you can give him/her a very powerful slap or punch. Which ever makes you feel awesome in the end (Y)

Do not be afraid to stand up for yourself. Do not let one or two assholes knock you down just because your life is better than them. They just want to be the center of attention. Making your life miserable is what making their life's popular so do not let them. Do not let them see your weaknesses. Show them that you are brave and not afraid. Choose your friends wisely and do not keep those who acted like an ass. Especially you yourself do not act like one. Do not do things that you do not want others to do it to you. Be fair and nice. Treat everyone equally. And do not make bad assumptions about someone based on your first impression.

I know this post does not really have a main point. But you managed to get something out of it right? Just make the best out of your life people :-) xx

When my past keeps knocking me down.

2011-10-13T23:20:00.009+08:00

I was at a very young age when I first knew the meaning of love. I was so naive that I believed every single words that came out from a guy. I believed that I was the one for them. I believed that I was everything to them. I believed that I'm going to be their wife one day. I believed that they couldn't live a single day without me. And most of all, I believed that they will love me forever. Until death to us apart. Yes, I was once a very dumb girl. But all this bullshits made me wiser. It made me who I am right now. It turned me into a tough girl. I've been in a relationship many times before and I noticed that they used the same words. Every. Fucking. Relationship. Same. Words. Like. Omg. And all this words, all this believes leads to a disaster. At first, I blamed it all on them. But the truth is, I was the stupid one. I was so in love that I failed to see their true self. Sometimes I said to myself like, what if I open my eyes and sees what's happening and tries to change them and like, what will happen? But then, I erased that thought. I'm glad that it's over. If not, I would've been so hurt right now and I would probably become a lesbian lol.

My point is, if it wasn't for them, if it wasn't for their stupid behavior towards me, I wouldn't turned out the way I am right now. I would still believe in the word "forever" which in my opinion is a very bullshit word and us girls should not ever believe in that. Get back to reality girls. Our fate is not in their hands. Come on, even married couples separated. Ok no offense but it's true right? I've been hurt a lot so I don't believe in forever, you're my only one, you're my everything and other bullshit words. Even happy ending is bullshit to me. Ok I admit it, those guys not just made me tough but they also made me feels scared. I'm afraid to start to believe again. I'm afraid that I might get hurt all over again. I don't want to start crying and mourning all day long again. I'm afraid to fall down knowing that there's no one down there to catch me. I know that we shouldn't be afraid to try 'cause life has no limit but, I cannot. I don't want to put my heart in danger again. It's too weak and tiny to be crushed into a tinier bite-sized pieces.

I hope my current boyf understand when he read this. It's not like I've been lying all this time. No. I've been trying and fighting my ass out to make it work with you 'cause you not just talk to talk but you walk to walk. You proved to me instead of just sending a text. But sometimes I still wonder would it be worth it? Are you really different from my exes? Are you the one who's going to make me start believing again? I guess I will never know if I don't take the risk.

My Businessman,

2011-09-15T23:38:00.006+08:00

My other half whom I love so much :-)

p/s: Identity beliau adalah rahsia. Terima Kasih :P

Horray!

2011-09-15T16:20:00.006+08:00

I know it's kind of too late to shout and scream (or anything thats related) due to the fact that I am now on semester break. Since I'm not studying in UiTM, I don't get to rest for one and a half month (melampau, tampar bertubi-tubi!) :( But it's okay, I can't wait to start the new semester anyways. I want to learn all the hard subjects. Especially Malaysian Studies! Ugh I can't wait to fall asleep in that class :B Ok no. Bad Izzah.

I can't wait to see my housemates and my coursemates! Shah Alam's boring right now. Most of my best friends are in UiTM and the rest who doesn't are not free during weekdays and I'm not free during weekends so... And if I times everything it's equals to; 3 weeks of boredom! Gah, I'm having so much fun! So much I tell you! So. Much. FUN. :-) <-- Nampak smiley ni? Ternyata tak keseronokan saya? Ternyatakan? Bagus.

Btw, I already got my results and it was okay. I mean, I could do better :-)

Oh well, have a great holidays everyone! Mine sucks. And Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir & Batin :-)

A simple word but, very meaningful.

2011-08-24T23:51:00.004+08:00

You know you are in love when every time that particular person call or text you, you will have that sudden urge to scream at the top of your lung or you will put on the biggest smile on your face. Yes. I sometimes have that feeling when me and my boyfriend are in a good condition. Every time the phone rings, I will immediately smile and my voice turns very soft. Hikhik. This is the first time ever that I had spent so much time with my boyfriend. I had been in a long distance relationship all my life and we (my ex and I) usually meet about once every two weeks and sometimes three. Sad, I know. And now, god has given me an opportunity to be in love with a person who is very near to me and also, to feel that 'short distance relationship' feeling that I have been longing for. I am really grateful and I promise that I will not put this opportunity to waste. I want to keep it and appreciate it as if this is my final chance. 'Cause he is truly a heck of a guy and I love him so much. He meant everything to me. I know sometimes I don't quite show it but believe me, he really does.

'You are the last person I think about before I sleep and the first person I think about when I wake up"

Lol yes, corny. But it's true though. There's not a single hour passes by without me thinking about him. It's like no matter where I go, he follows. Ohmygod stalker. Help! :O Yknow, I keep on reminding myself that I am blessed to be given a chance to love and be loved by him. He is too sweet and too good to be true. Ugh you are truly one of a kind love. No one can be a prince and a princess at the same time as good as you. I don't know whether if I really do worth your tears or not but, you are certainly worth mine. And speaking of tears, there's a quote saying; "You know he's a keeper when he cries for you" sksjpmdyjksdsjkbxhwskds :') I definitely want to keep you for the longest time. I will try to change for you. I don't want you to go away. Stay with me. I want to make your life better and more meaningful. I want to be that person who put a rainbow in you when you have a bad day. I want to be that person who you will always turn too when you have a problem. Mostly, I want to be that person whose name will instantly pop out in your mind and heart when you see a hot girl(s). Words can't describe my feelings towards you. Even my heart is overload. I need an external hard disk to plug in my heart (HAHAHAHA GILA LAME :P). Baby, I need you to know that my love for you is true and sincere. Always remember that Iloveyousomuch my dear. You are truly the best I have ever had :')

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MY SWEET SWEET LIFESAVER <3:-*

I miss you :(

2011-08-23T20:43:00.003+08:00

NO ONE KNOWS HOW MUCH I MISS THIS PHONE ! :'(

Sometimes I regret selling it to Zul. But sometimes I don't.

But....but.... I REALLY REALLY MISS USING THIS BABY!

There's alot of memory in this phone :'( Haih.

Stop and stare, no?

2011-08-22T03:47:00.004+08:00

I know it's not good to stop and look back at the past but sometimes, it could be a really fun thing :)

OMG

2011-08-11T23:22:00.001+08:00

Ho ho once again I neglected this blogspot :O Sowy sowy. I've been really busy. Kena submit banyak gila ass (assignment) yg due datenya semua dekat-dekat. Haih. Kena TULIS 14 journal, buat student survey, and DRAMA are the three last ass yg nak kena submit. After that raya seminggu then FINAL then cuti two weeks then sambung semester baru. So yeah, this past free weeks had been a really badass week. I hope I have time to study though. Languange learning strategies and study skills are the toughest one. Its like history. I have to memories all the details. And grammar! Ugh I have trouble with grammar. I'm confused. Hard. But nahh, I'll try to understand. I want to ace this sem. I MUST ace this sem. This sem is the easiest among all cause we only studies 4 subjects. I cannot fail. Hihihi.

Intrapersonal

2011-06-27T16:29:00.002+08:00

Idk why but for this past few days I feel like I wanted to be alone. Like going to class alone, sitting at the cafe alone, everything lah alone. Idk why. I'm usually the "always want to go anywhere with someone" type of girl *ecehh. HAHA entah lah balik sini balik terus terasa nak berseorangan. Nak kata rindu si dia tkde lah sgt sampai effect mcmni kan haha entah. But to tell the truth, I like being alone. I can get things done very quickly ~ kuikui

Ok bye! haha saja gedik nak blog padahal tktau nak cakap apa sgt :P xx

Mi novio encantador;)

2011-06-25T04:01:00.004+08:00

Te quiero, de verdad. No lo olvides.

Siempre estará en mi corazón

Mientras yo siempre estaré en el tuyo.

Te amo bebé <3 :)

Kenali budak bilik saya yg otaknya gila!

2011-06-21T03:59:00.009+08:00

Sometimes I feel weird blogging in Bahasa but as a malay girl, I should be proud of my language. Sooooo yeah, get ready to read this ridiculous post. Sure mengarut gila. Yela, BM saya kan tak bagus :S hikhik. Jgn kritik dan menghina ok? Haha enjoy ;D

Saya bersyukur kerana dikurniakan budak bilik (haha kelakar lah) yg mmg satu kepala dgn saya. Dari mula saya tinggal disini, saya dpt rasa yg kami semua akan menjadi kawan baik. Alhamdulillah semuanya okey. Saya tak ada masalah sgt dgn dorang semua ni. Dorang baik, ringan tulang, pemalas, suka tidur lmbt, otak sewel dan lucah HAHA semua mcm saya :P kuikui . Kdg2 rasa mcm dah kenal dorang ni lama dah. Otak mmg gila mcm kawan2 sekolah hihi.

Minggu lepas ktrang semua tkbalik rumah. Ktrang sewa kereta 24 jam dan pergi melepak dkt shah alam. Seronok sgt! Ktrang lepak barra lepastu pergi i-city, kemudian lepak mcd sampai pukul 6 dgn budak2 unisel yg lain. Kiranya dua kereta lah kan. Pukul 6 lbh ktrang gerak Bukit 12 utk tgk sunset (dlm bahasa melayu apa?) yg tkberapa nak ada. Kemudian bila semua dah penat, kereta lagi satu, kereta copa (ye mmg pelik nama dia. Sebutnya kopa ok bukan chopa haha) beransur pulang dan kami berlima berangkat ke sunway selepas menetap di pelita buat seketika. Macam2 ktrang buat dkt sunway saaaaaampai petang. Main ice skating dan dpt jumpa Amir adalah saat paling best masa tuh ;) hihi. Ptg sikit, ktrang pun beransur pulang. Sumpah seronok sgt luangkan masa dgn dorang semua ni. Mcm adik beradik yg kononnya terbiar dan dikutip oleh ibu angkat dan diletak didalam satu rumah HAHAHA. Oh sebelum terlupa, budak rumah saya terdiri daripada Lina, Mayam, Iqa dan Athirah. Dan ini adalah gambar2 kami :)

P/s: Mohon maaf kerana tidak menceritakannya dgn lebih terperinci lagi. Malas lah. Lagipun korang bukannya bacapun jadi buat penat aku je HAHAHA.

When paranoid attacked.

2011-06-19T22:23:00.006+08:00

Why izit every time I tried to look away, it came back knocking me down on the ground? I told myself a thousand times that things will be alright but when I started to believe, doubts came rushing back to me. What’s wrong with me? Why am I always experience this? Sometimes in time like this, people ought to say that I should follow my heart. But then again, if I do that, someone will get hurt. And that someone could be me and in the end, I will just regret everything that I did and wish that I didn’t make that decision. But... Haih Idk what to do. Idk which road to take. Idk who/what to believe. Things just aint right, rn. Or izit just me? Maybe I’m too paranoid rn :S

“Lawanya ex dia asal dia tak stay je dgn perempuan ni”

“Kenapa dia break dgn ex dia? Lawa kot”

It hurts my ears and heart to hear things like this from my friends. I know I’m not pretty at all and I’m not even close to the word “cute” but hey, he chose me. He chose me over all those pretty girls. He chose to love me. ME. ME. ME. HE. CHOSE. ME. Ok fuck aku dah paranoid woi babi woi apa ni ok fuck Izzah shut up. Ish. I cannot lah like this. It’s too painful. I can’t even.. o m g what is happening. *tarik nafas* Ok hi. I know that he chose me but when someone said something like that I become paranoid. I will feel like something is wrong somewhere. In our relationship. In his feeling. In my feeling. In everything. Something just ain’t right. I feel like I’ve been played. And it keeps me wondered, why did he chose me? He has such a pretty exes. What did he see in me? I got nothing. I’m not nice, I’m not rich, I’m not skinny, I’m not pretty and I’m not cute. So like, What. Did. He. See. In. Me?! Motherfucker lah perasaan ni >:O

Ugh you know what? I’m just going to let this shit go. I want to forget about it. Maybe he really do love me. For who I am. Maybe because he can fully be himself around me. Or maybe because I love him for who he is too. Idk maybe. But I got to believe in him. If he said that he love me, then I have to believe him 100%. But for whatever reason, I’m glad that he choose to stay.

“You’re worth every tears and heartache.Loving you isn’t easy but you’re worth having in my life”

–Amir :’)

2011-06-15T22:20:00.004+08:00

I wanna run from everything.

Bye.

New love, new story.

2011-06-13T21:19:00.001+08:00

First of all, this post is NOT about Hafiez Arieff okay, eiuw? Whats done is done and I will never look back cause he's NOT a keeper. We broke up before SPM and he moved on already. And so did I. Meet my new boyfriend, Amir Ifwat Azmi :)

I'm very deeply in love with him. I seriously never thought that I would fall for him. I dont really like dating my own schoolmate but this dude, he never stop trying. Believe me, I pushed him so many time before. I even asked him to stop loving me but he never give up. He keep on trying. So one day, I said to myself, why not. Why not I just give him a chance. Cause he's a really nice guy and he treats me good. We've been together for 5 months now and I'm proud to say that I'm glad that I've given him a chance. He's always there for me. We're kinda like husband and wife cause we went almost everywhere together. We understand each other and we're also V E R Y comfortable with each other. And the best part of dating your schoolmate is that, I can hangout with his friends and he can hangout with my friends cause basically we kinda like have to same friends HAHA geddit? :p And also we know each other well. I never thought that dating your schoolmate can be so much fun :)

Dulu time nak push him away, macam2 ayat aku kasi dekat dia. "I cant imagine us together" lah "I can only see us as friends lah" lah "It will never work out lah" lah "Kita takleh bayang kahwin dengan awak" lah HAHAHA sumpah macam2 doh. But everything changes now. He became my top priority. And I can imagine us getting married one day *eceh HAHA if god willing than I am proud to call you my husband cause baby you're amazing :) Thank you Allah for opened my heart for him. I am truly grateful :')

Talking to the moon, trynna get to you.

2011-06-12T04:59:00.002+08:00

So my whole family (except my sister cause she's studying in Egypt) went on vacation in Philippines along with my uncle and his family without me. I dont mind though its not a big deal to me. My sister got to go to London also I dont mind. Idk why. I'm stuck at home with Kak Sindy. But technically, I'm not REALLY stuck with her. I spent every night and day going out with my boyfriend. Balik rumah untuk tidur je haha. He did a hell of a great job taking care of me. We had lunch together, dinner together, going to shopping mall(s) together, watched a movie together. Everything lah together. We even dated like a rempit together HAHAHA.

Bangga dapat boyfriend yang sanggup teman pergi mana2. Nak pergi beli barang college dia teman (beli bra pun dia teman :p), nak pergi pos malaysia dia teman, nak pergi saloon dia teman, nak keluar makan dia teman, nak tengok movie dia teman and paling sweet, bila dia teman beli barang dekat giant and dia tolong tolak trolley haha sumpah comel. Mmg mcm suami isteri yang baru berkahwin *berangan. Nak jaga Amir betul2 tanak dia lari cari orang lain and nak appreciate dia. I want to be his everything and I want to be the best girlfriend he ever had, I know its hard but I want to try. I want to be obsess with him like how he obsess with me. And I dont want to make him cry. He cries often okay so I want to reduce it HAHA. Okay sedar tak lari topic? :S Dah kemana dah ni zz. Anyway, thanks sayang for willing to waste your time on me. I appreciated it :') Mwah love you kbye. xx

Ujian kehidupan.

2011-06-09T00:15:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum :)

There's a lot of things going on in my head. Things like, what am I going to write for my journal, what theme am I going to choose for drama, how am I going to boost my confidence to speak up in class, how am I going to deal with money problem, how am I going to decrease my size (hikhik), what am I suppose to do to become more romantic and most importantly, WHICH. HAIR. STYLE. SHOULD. I. CHOOSE. O. M.G !!! I already cut my hair short like SOOOOOOOOOOO SHORT and its a straight cut. This is my first time trying a straight cut and I dont like it that much cause I'm used to layered hair. Nak potong layer tapi rambut dah pendek dah. Kang kalau potong layer nanti nampak lagi pendek. And nak potong fringe pula. Tak suka lah rambut depan panjang sebab tak sesuai dengan muka. So what am I going to do? UGH DILEMMA *SLAP. Mampus lah aku nak potong layer juga. Nampak lagi pendek pun pendek lah. Apa guna simpan rambut panjang kalau rambut tuh kasar macam penyapu tuh haa. Atleast now rambut aku pendek tapi lembut gila hikhik dah lama tak rasa rambut lembut macamni :') Hee sukanya! haha.

But the problem is, duit tinggal sikit and my whole family is on vacation in Philippines and I'll be back in Shah Alam tomorrow so like I'm going to be left alone with Kak Sindy. And duit tinggal 180++ je ni. Susah lah hidup dekat hostel ni. Kawan nak makan aku ikut makan. Makan sehari dah rm10 and campur topup and beli makanan ringan lagi. Aduhh boros betul lah aku ni zzzz. Tapi aku nak potong rambut D: Rambut aku buruk lah ish! Or potong fringe je? Fringe berapa? 10 eh? Kk boleh lah tuh. Rambut belakang kena sabar dulu. Panjang sikit baru aku potong. Tapi aku ni bila dah teringin sangat mesti tak ingat apa. Dalam kepala tuh mesti nak juga. Kang setiap kali pergi SA Mall mesti perasaan nak potong tuh tinggi gila babi haha percaya lah -.- Ini lah masalah aku haih memang 100% kena berubah. Nasib Abah pemurah suka kasi duit. Kalau buatnya dia suruh aku kerja tanggung sendiri macam mana? Aduhh. Tapi tak kot, Abah baik :D

Tengok lah aku ni bila lah kembali ke kehidupan blogging, mesti type panjang2 haha idk why. Tapi sekarang aku dah mengantuk dah ni. Esok class pagi. So goodnight youalls xx

Reborn :)

2011-06-05T22:06:00.005+08:00

Assalamualaikum :)

Wow. Its been a really long time. I cant even remember the last time I blog. Wow ok W O W. The reason why I decided to reopen my blog is because I'm in college now and I'm staying in a hostel with 5 awesome girls and yet, there's no entertainment and whatsoever. Cause this is a private college. Not like Uitm, provide you TV and whatnots. Bummer, I know. This is why you should study hard and get good results if you want to be in a great college. Or many just have a rich parents who can afford sending you to great colleges like Monash, Lim Kok Wing, Taylors, Segi and such. But I'm grateful to be here. I made a lot of friends and they're all awesome and kind. And the best part is, my pet brother, Zaki, also studying there. Hihi. Ada juga org nak jaga aku dkt sini :')

So yeah, basically I just want to tell you all this. I just feel like blogging so hi ;D haha. I will update this blog from time to time. I will not abandon it like I used too. Hehe. Ok, nak keluar makan. Bye :) xx

Army of Malaysia

2010-07-27T15:30:00.001+08:00

Is it too late to talk about PLKN? If yes then aaaa too bad :( I wanna blog about this sooner but I’m too busy with life. My life is full of nothing when I’m sad or depressed (did I ever mention that I get depress easily?). But at the end of the day, I can see a rainbow shining through :’) Anyways, back to the topic. Since I was 14, I always wanted to go to PLKN. I find it very interesting and I love all the activities that they offered there. But last few weeks, kecoh satu FB pasal PLKN. I was sooo damn excited. So then I checked my IC number and guess what? I wasn’t on the list. I repeat, WAS NOT ON THE FUCKING LIST LIKE OH MY GOSH (!) Are effing kidding me? I waited a life time for this effing moment and this is what I effing get? A total knocked over -.- Pstt I was so pissed off. Like REALLY. I was so sure that I’m going to get it but eff you gov! Kasi dekat budak yg tanak pergi buat apa? Kasi lah dekat aku doe. Sumpah aku nak pergi. Siap doa dekat Makkah lagi tau. But AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA my wish didn’t come true :( Why oh why. Where did I go wrong? ;O

But oh well. Look on the bright side. Cerah kulit aku nanti. Tkde lah jadi macha. Tak macam korang. Go in as an angel. Came back as a bangla. HAHAHAHAHAHA! And and not to mention dorang 3 bulan dekat sana allowance sikit je. 350? Ktrang dekat sini buat part time dapat 3 kali ganda. HAHA BEAT THAT MF! But but bear dapat PLKN. And so does Mazrul and Acap. How am I suppose to have fun without them three? :’( Nak manja2 dgn siapa after this bear tkde :( AAAA itu fuck okay. Itu fuck. I might as well off my phone every night. There’s no one to talk too. But on the other bright side. Haha. I have Nabilah, Nick, Nana, Atiq, Muadzam and all the cool people to hangout with. Wuhuuu. But don’t worry bear, I takkan curang punya lah. I swear. Tak hingin pun. Dorang tak best. Yueks. Haha.

So the conclusion is I’m 50% sad and 50% happy about all this shizz. Whatever lah benda dah berlalu. There’s no turning back. Lupakan PLKN. Focus on trial. Dah nak dekat dah ni. Aiyooo -.- Puasa pun nak dekat. 7 months anniversary pun nak dekat :) hehe

Swing your hips and giggles.

200 days of love

2010-07-20T15:33:00.003+08:00

Me and Hafiez have been together for 200 days (6 months and 19 days) (!) wuhuuuu. I met him yesterday and I must say that so far that was our best date yet. Hee it was so much fun! After this kita happy happy mcm semalam okay? Tanak gaduh2 lagi. Bottom line is, iloveyou hafiez arieff :) Thanks for all the gift. Mmmmwah :-* hehe.

Swing your hips and fall in love.

We worked it out

2010-07-17T15:23:00.003+08:00

I'm glad that our relationship's still standing strong after all those nasty fights. Iloveyou hafiez and I'm sorry for what happen. Maybe I was a little dramatic and maybe you got a little carried away. But. Its okay bie. Its all good now :) And I'm hoping that it wont happen again. Ever. I mean like not as big as this lah. Its too horrible. And thank god it did not cost us our love :| Iloveyou. And I won't leave you for things like this. The most important thing right now is that we're okay now. No more fights and no hard feelings towards each other. Iloveyou bear. Remember that :)

Swing your hips and giggles.

Germany, you're still my favourite !

2010-07-12T15:58:00.003+08:00

I'm wearing jersey Germany :)

Boo Espana Boo (!) I hate you Spain, I hate you. Seriously I think Germany should won. They got enough strength and enough energy. Well yeah Germany main gelejoh sikit but still they deserve to be crown as the winner. Hmmm :( This is sad. If Netherlands menang kurang lah sikit sedih haku ni. Okay eventhough Spain byk player hot hot tapi tapi Germany gak patut menang! All thanks to Paul the effing octopus -_______-" If dia tak predict, tkde lah kurang semangat dorang. Haiyaa. Nak marah pun too late now. Nasi dah jadi bubur. HAHAHA. Congrats Espana. Congrats Holland. Congrats Germany. 3rd place pun jadi lah. I still love you guys. Especially Mesut Ozil. Oh oh I love you. I love his stone-ish eyes. I find it every attractive :) hehe.

So after this, EPL. MANCHESTER UNITED ALL THE WAYY (!) GLORY GLORY MAN UTD. Make mama proud baby. Bring home the prize. Dont let me down this time. Mmwah :*

BOO ESPANA BOOOO ! HAHA

Swing your hips and giggles.

Never Forgotten.

2010-07-05T18:00:00.003+08:00

School suddenly seems so cool (!)

2010-07-03T12:23:00.004+08:00

awww u post about me !? haha i have nothing to say **tergamam okay :p

oh oh i pun dah guna number baru. later i bgtau u ye. hee :DD
**hey don't be expect that our relationship can close back like before. sorry babe. i can't

No I tak expect apa2 pun cause dah setahun kot. I totally understand. I just happy cause I got to heard from you again :) Its nice. hehe. You goodluck spm nanti. Trial pun dah dekat sumpah I cuak :S HAHA.

Okay berbalik kepada topic asal kita. Sorry commercial kejap :) hehe. Anyways I know I promise to show some of my pictures in Makkah, Madinah and Cairo but I'm too lazy. And plus Idk what to say anymore haha it was so long ago (baru 2 weeks :p). Right now I just wanna babble about me and school. The results are in and sad to say, I've disappointed myself :| I haven't tell my parents yet. Just bgtau yg A je haha. The most disappointed result ever is addmath. I always tell myself that addmath is effing hard. Always. And now look what happen? My aunty said that the more I said its hard, the harder it'll get. I have to believe that I can do it. GO FARR YOU CAN DO IT. YOU CAN ACE IT (!) hehe :B

Every year all the school seniors gotta make a class photo to put in the school magazine. And through my observation, jarang gila kot the whole form 5 class buat class photo. But this year, semua semangat gila. I heard IK3 and IK4 pun buat class photo. I'm so proud of all of us. Macam ni lah baru senior plg cool B-) And also I heard, all the photos is/are highly edited. Which is good. We can be the coolest and the stylest senior B-) Its very sad knowing that my high school life is coming to an end. Back in 2006, I was always so eager to be a senior, to get out off the school. But now.. :/ I am so gonna miss you guys. All of you. Seriously. Even though some of us never really talk to each other, but I will miss seeing your face. And to those who are close to me, I will definitely miss you guys. Tau lah takkan jumpa sangat nanti. Korang jaga diri okay? Jangan lah lupa aku. Izzah Farihah ni weii! Minah brutal, takkan nak lupa kot? :O HAHAHA. Nak pegi club calling calling lah ye? hihi. And I will totally miss my classmate. Ktrang 1Malaysia gila. Semua bangsa ada. Iban pun ada tau! haha. And semua crackhead. Which I loike (!) 'Ride together, die together. Brothers for life (!)'. That slogan is for us, the STMs :)

Same of our class photo :) Ni je tau korang boleh tgk. Yg lain surprise. Aku mmg takkan post dkt facebook. Hee if nak tgk, tgu bila magazine dah keluar :) hehe

Swing your hips and giggles.

Fara Nabila :')

2010-06-26T00:06:00.004+08:00

Hee I'm back from Makkah :) Do you miss me? :D haha. I have a lot to tell and pictures that need to be shown here but I'm not gonna do it now. This post is for Fara Nabila :) I haven't heard from her since forever. And baru tadi terbaca comment tadi so I was like, OMG I GOTTA MAKE A POST FOR HER JUST IN CASE SHE ACCIDENTALLY READ MY BLOG AGAIN ! haha :) This is what she said ;

tagged : domo and aeit jubo (mamat ni watak tambahan je haha)

do you still remember me ? HAHA i bet tak kot kan kan -.- sorry farr sebab missing without news. and sorry sebab jd stalker tgk lihat dan pandang blog u ;p *accidently terjumpa yr BLOG

*fara :')

Awww Fara sumpah I rindu you. Mana you menghilang huh? Dah setahun kot tak dengar cerita. Byk benda dah you tktau pasal I. Bila I tanya acap pasal you, dia cakap dia jarang jumpa you. Haih. Eventhough rumah kita dekat je but I rasa mcm you jauh je dari I. I hope you dgn family you okay now. I dgn family I pun okay je now. Life I pun fantastic je. Ups and downs tu ada lah jgk but not as bad as before. You still remember tak what happen before? Hmm maybe you lupa kot but its okay. If you want my number you can ask acap. I dah tukar number. Nasuha pun tkde number I yg baru. Senang2 you contact lah I or Sofea. We miss you and ktrang tak lupa you pun dont worry. I still contact dgn Sofea so if you nak jumpa ktrang just tell acap okay? :) Nice to hear from you again babe. Take care and hopefully talk to you soon :)

The only flower bloom on spring.

2010-06-04T22:44:00.010+08:00

' I Love You Hafiez Arieff. Mmmmmwahhh'

Bear, you're one of a kind. I love to be around you. You always makes me happy. You know how to take care of me. Your smile brighten up my life. Your hug warm my heart. I love you bie. I'm sorry if I ever hurt you. I didn't mean too, you know I love you right? I mean it when I say I will always do. There's not a single day passed by without me missing you. Really. Like that song, 'even if I dream of you. The sweetest dream will never do cause I'll miss you baby and I dont want to miss a thing' :) Hee. I can be myself when I around you. There's something about you that always makes me high. And I love that. I know you love me. I know you do. And I feel the same way too. We can work this out bie. We just have to believe in our self and our love. I'm sorry if dulu i ada terasa nak curang. I didn't actually. But I'm not quite sure how to classified that feeling. But you forgive me. Thanks bear :) I won't let you down again. Trust me. I love you.

You pena cakap if dah 5 months mcmni you dah start flirting with other girls. Tapi dgn I you tak buat mcmtu. I believe you. I tau perangai you mcm mana. And I can see that you've change. I'm so proud of you. I dah tk risau dah about you being unfaithful to me. I pun you tkyah risau tau. Tkmau mcmni tkmau mcmni :p haha. Seriously I don't know what more to say about you bear. There's so many things that you do that makes me love you. My love for you becomes bigger and bigger everyday. Even my friends pun boleh nampak dari muka I yg I betul2 syg you. There's nothing and no one can get in between us. If ada pmpn nak kacau, I serang dia. If you marah I, I serang you plak. Haha. Don't chu be flirting with mah man (!) You I punya. I sayang you. To hell siapa yg berani nak kacau. I tak lawa mana pun so you tkyah risau, tkde laki lain yg akan get in between. :) Iloveyou tau.

Sumpah I tk bersedia nak tinggalkan you lama2 mcmni. 2 weeks bear. 2 weeks :( I tkleh text you selalu. No more otp sampai 2-3 pagi. No more hugs. No more kiss. No more holding hands. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! FUUUUUUUUU- Okay but look on the bright side. I pegi makkah. Boleh lah I doakan we stay together until the day we die. That's the first thing I nak doa bila I sampai sana nanti. Serious. I think I'm so lucky to have you. Like I said, you're one of a kind :') I'm truly grateful. I happy gila kita dapat jumpa today. Eventhough sekejap but still it was special :) I balik kang I terus call you. I wanna give you a massive hug. Imma hug you so tight until you can't breathe. Wait for me bear. I tau you takkan curang. So take care. By that I mean, REALLY SYG TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF (!) I tanak denga you sakit ni sakit tuh. I akan doakan you tkde semua tuh. Thats the main reason why I berat hati nak tglkn you. I hope you'll be fine. Anything can happen in 2 weeks. I hope you still there when I get back :| Promise you'd be there okay? okay. I love you.

I don't care if post ni jiwang or whatsoever. My blog okay, bitch. Bear, I'm gonna miss you. Place me in your heart, and don't let me go. I will always be with you bear. If I'm not there beside you, I'm there in your heart. Well same goes to me. I love you, only you. In my heart forever you will stay :)

Hafiez Arieff Mohd Redza, I love you :-*

Looking back at the memories :)

2010-06-03T23:30:00.004+08:00

Hey babes. Sorry for the late update. I was thinking of doing a special post for my bear since 010610 was our 5 month anniversary but I'm afraid that he might read it haha. Kang aku tulis jiwang2 dia baca kan dah malu :p haha. So instead I would like to post about this one guy. Because today, 030610 is a very memorable day. I think I'm the only one who remember what happen on 030609 (yes 2009). I feel like it was only yesterday. Masih fresh tau diingatan. But I intent to erase those memories one day . I gotta make more room for me bear :) Okay lets begin;

030609 was the saddest day ever for me last year. Its sickening for me knowing that everything I ever built crushed into million bite-size pieces. You told me that you didn't go out on that day. But you lied. You left me standing in a corner of a dark room. I couldn't see a thing. All I can see is my hopes and dreams musnah mcm tuh je. You said the reason you wanted to go was because you can't stand me texting all those guys but the truth is you just wanted to be with her. FUCK! That night I had a melt down. Thanks to Akid I managed to cool down :) He's the only guy that ever heard me crying. You should be proud Akid cause its hard to see me cry. hehe. But yeah seriously. Tkcaye go ask my friend. I woke up the next morning thinking that it was just a stupid dream because I dreamt about you that night. I quickly grabbed my phone and checked my inbox. Oh how painful it was knowing that it was not a dream. My heart broke into more million pieces. Imagine how tiny it was! I cried immediately. It was not an ordinary cry, it was more than that. I have never felt so empty. I have never felt so sad. I have never felt so lonely. And I have never felt so hurt. I cried 24/7. Like seriously. But whatever pun, thanks for the memories. I know we are no longer friend since last month or last two month but I will never forget your name. You are still a friend of mine. Nothing more nothing less. Take care :)

Oh btw people, dont get me wrong. I dont have anymore feelings for this bastards. Its over. And let it stay that way. I have Hafiez already and god knows how much I love him :-* :)

Swing your hips and giggles.

Yawww whaddup? :)

2010-05-30T00:12:00.004+08:00

Whoaa its been such a long time. Once again, I've been busy. Its exam week and mann I'm struggling alright. I mean math paper 2 is such a pain in the ass. I really really want to shout the F word out loud. Sejarah paper 2 pun lebih kurang. But essay I can do it lah. Dapat soalan bocor :D Physics pun cam cibai tau tak! But nasib baik Cgu Amirul yg jaga kelas, dapat tiru ;D HAHA

Anyways, I'm here to update you about my life since its been a long time. My life had been really hectic lately. I hate it. Everything is falling a part. Though I never quite show it to anyone but yeah. That's how I really feel. But I put all that aside, cause my love life is doing just fine :) Yeah you heard me, it's doing FAAAINNNEE (!) Its almost 5 months now and I gotta tell cha, I'm scared :| Remember last year? My relationship with ehemehem dah sampai 5 months lebih but last2 kena dumped. So yeah I'm quite scared. But I talked with bear, he said I dont have to worry about that cause he will always love me :) HAHA I know korang mesti cakap jangan caye. But there's something about him that makes me believe in him. Idk lah. We'll see if its true or not. Bet rm10 kay? kay. Okay I'm soo gonna make a special post for bear sempena our 5 months anniversary. Hehe. Harap2 bear tkbaca :p

Moving on; as you all know I'm now wearing braces. Lucky me the colour is still orange -.- Pstt. I want purple lah dey! PURH-PEL (!) Haihh. Idk whats wrong with the doctor tanak tukar colour -.- I'm kinda pissed off but the doctor is my father's friend so there's not much I can do about it. Well bear said orange is cute already :D HAHAHAHA. But not only bear lah, kawan2 sekolah pun cakap comel hehe. Now I dont have to pout all the time anymore. I can smile now (!) Weeee ~ I'm not scare anymore to show my teeth to the world. hee can't wait until semua gap dah tkde. I can smile smile all the time waaaaaa bahagianya hidup nanti :p HAHAHAHA

Okay thats enough mengarut in one post. I can't believe I type this long. Usually pendek2 je. Hee Idk why today cam semangat gila nak tulis byk2. Ni belum lagi cerita pasal my birthday haha thats my up coming topic *wink.

Swing your hips and giggles.

Sorry for the late update :)

2010-04-10T18:50:00.002+08:00

Hey sorry kay? I've been very busy lately but I'm here now :) hehehe. Anyways, this is what I wanna show you,

B-R-A-C-E-S (!) HAHAHAHHAAHHA. Thats all :p Bye.

I'm back bitches (!)

2010-03-20T23:40:00.004+08:00

Yaww I'm back (!) Tapi sekejap jela. Entap knp tiba tiba rasa nak update blog haha rindu. So anyways, a lot of things happen to me lately. Good and bad. And lucky me, I made it through. So whatever that I'm facing in the future, bring it! I'm ready. It couldn't be that bad right? hee :) Oh I wanna say congrats to all my beloved seniors who got good result. I wanna have good result too :\ I'm targeting atleast 7 A's :) Hee tolak addmath and physics. If I study hard enough, maybe just maybe I'll get a B? Oh yeah B. Atleast B. Haha. But if dapat C but dah kira bertuah gila for addmath. I never pass haha. Last year dpt 4 kot? ke 5? Regardless lah dah lepas. Right now kena stop teasing mama and lee haha nak spm kena stop kejap :p

Anyways, I'll be updating in 2 weeks. So this is me before that '2 weeks'

Ignore my hair and my face -.- Just focus on my teeth aite? In 2 weeks, you will see some changes. I promise. Haha trust me I cant wait either. This is so exciting haha. But dont guess tau! Just wait :D Okay see you in two weeks. MMMMMMWAHHH MAMA LOVE YAAAAA :*

Swing your hips and giggles.

Merentas desa II

2010-01-17T18:11:00.003+08:00

Malas lah nak cerita -.- HAHAHA. But all I can say is, HECK YEAH PURNAMA WINS! AGAIN (!) wuhuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.

Swing your hips and giggles.

Merentas desa -.-

2010-01-15T21:03:00.002+08:00

'Izzah, asal kau makin gelap? Kau lupa pakai bedak ek?'

By far itu lah kata2 yg sgt kejam yg pernah dilemparkan oleh Nabil D: Haha dia nak ejek gemuk aku tak kisah. Tapi gelap? OMG (!) Not acceptable. That night, aku tepek3 whitening kat muka -.- Haha so, sorry Beros. Aku tkleh masuk kawad. Kang gelap lagi. Hehe.

Tomorrow ada larian Smks9 or merentas desa. I dont want to be a part of it. But sadly. I'm in -.- tf! Semua gara2 sha lah ni :p Haha. Actually I'm not feeling well right now. I have a cold. But for purnama's sake, I'm willing to run. Ecehhh :p HAHA. So wish me luck kay? kay. I'll tell you all about it tomorrow.

Swing your hips and giggles.

School is cool? psttt

2010-01-08T15:04:00.003+08:00

Pstt baru seminggu sekolah dah rasa malas dah -.- Heh apa nak jadi dgn kamu ni Farr? Dah lah kamu nak amek spm! Tlg lah rajin sikit. Pemalas betul lah kamu! *kata hati. Bising lah hati ni. Sukati aku lah -.- HAHA. Tkde lah. Nak kata pemalas tuh tk jugak. Homework addmath for the first time after 8 months abandon kan, dah siap tau. See betapa rajinnya Farr tahun ni :D hehe. Homework math pun siap tau. *eh homework math mmg selalu aku buat pun -.- apa lah. Anyways, my point is Farr dah makin rajin. hehehe. Semangat nak menduduki spm ni :) Abah kata setahun je utk belaja bersungguh2. Lps ni dah tk boleh. So yeah. Setahun je okay? Kat college kang main2 balik :p haha.

Btw witness this,

(click for a better view)

Haha nmpk? *ofcourse lah nmpk bodo -.- hehe. This is my ride to school :) Don't call me minah rempit okay? Tanak tanak! Heh. Tau tak bpk segan nak bawak moto g sekolah? The only girl plak tuh en. Aiyoo -.- Laki semua ajak race haha. Ada yg cakap aku bawak comel lah, kelakar lah and paling tkleh blaa. Ezzat kata aku bawak lembab -.- Haha takpe. Lambat asal selamat kan kan?

Swing your hips and giggles.

Hello '10 :)

2010-01-01T23:26:00.003+08:00

Yeay dah 2010! Hehe. I hope my future will be bright. All the things that happened to me last year is now officially a history. I got to start opening a new book. A book that I will share with my new boyf :) Hehehehehehe :B Ily. Anyways, I didn't celebrate new year much. Its not really my tradition but after spm, all of that is going to change :D As you know, I am now a senior. School senior to be exact. And I can't wait to rule the school :D muahahahahahahaha (evil laugh). Prefect can't touch us. They can't do anything. And the teachers, hmmm they won't harm us much. hehe. Beware juniors. Now dah tkde senior utk dibuli, junior aa en kena ganti :D I already pick my victims so watch out guise :B

I really can't believe that I got less than 2 days je utk tido dari pagi sampai ptg, utk online 24/7, utk ngayut lama3. Haihh. Lepas ni mmg confirm tkde masa. Tuition masyaallah petang and malam. sukan lagi. Dah aa kena active en. Babi aaaaaaa. And I'm 17. My responsibility mmg a whole lot different than yesterday (2009) And I don't think I'm ready. Well not yet lah kan. Whatevs.

I'm tired. Tadi igtkan nak letak video je sbb malas nak type. Tp nak upload babi lama -.- psttt. Okay lah bye.

Swing your hips and giggles :)

Quick update.

2009-12-30T18:12:00.002+08:00

Ohmygod. Can you believe it? Lg 2 hari je nak new year. Omg! And tomorrow will be new year's eve (!) Ohmygod. I have less than 2 days to enjoy my singlehood ;o ohmyyyyyy. hahaha

A new beginning

2009-12-28T03:16:00.002+08:00

Well you know since 2010 is just around the corner so I thought, hey maybe its time for me to change. So Imma start making a whole bunch of list about what I'm going to change about myself if you know what I mean *keningkening* HAHAHA. 2009 have/had been a really awful yet interesting year. And honestly if I own a time machine, I dont ever want to go back to this year. Although there is a few moments or days or months that makes me really happy. But then again, the whole year was a total bullshit to me. Erghh. So right now I have less than 4 days to enjoy 2009. I have to get over my past in order to start the future. And I must say, it isn't easy for me. No one knows what I've been through. Its awful. I dont want to go back. Ever.

So next year, guys, please. Help me to start a better life. Help me to stop cutting. I dont ever want to cut next year. If I'm going to be an adult. I have to learn to be/act like one. So I'm going to try to stop myself. Theres always a way for me to stop. It always have been. *dont get me wrong. I dont do drugs thank you very much*. But you know, its difficult for me to choose either one. But its more difficult for me to not to choose. If you know I'm sayin'. So haha you can see my dilemma right? :D A really pathetic dilemma. Haha. But I'm okay now. Thanks to my friends :) I love you guys. Forever and always :*

Oh and btw, AHMAD ASYRAF AZIZ && MAZRUL AIMAN AB MALEK, imissyouguys D:

Swing your hips and giggles.

Live and let die.

2009-12-23T21:46:00.003+08:00

Have you ever feel so fucking torn apart that you wish you could just disappeared and return back when you feel okay? Well I'm having those kind of feelings right now. I just wish I could get away from everything right now. No internet. No cellphone. No psp. No friends. No family. Just me. All by myself. I imagine it in my mind everyday. But I could never ever own that peacefulness. I wanna get away from everything so badly D: I'm sooo fucking torn apart right now. Hmmm. Heh. But jsyk, it have nothing to do with a guy. LIE! haha. Okay maybe just a little. But thats not it. I'm somehow feeling torn apart because of something else. Something big. Oh goshh. I'm so messed up. Wait. I'm always messed up. Nothing is good enough for me. I'm weird. I know.

But I don't fucking need help. Like therapist and all that. Thats bullshit. I'm not THAT sick. The fuck. I've never been sick. I'm just sick of people around me who never gave me that much space. I know I'm the only girl in this fucking house. I know you need to keep an eye on me. I know you know that I'm wild. I know I'm such a burden. But pleaseee. I need my own space. Like seriously. And stop wanting me to be someone I'm not. Like whats the point? I can change. Sure I can. But I will never ever, EVER be like my sister. That is so not me. Gila mcm langit danbumi? Erghh.

Whatever. When the time has/have come. Let me go. And dont put your hopes too high hoping that I'll be back. Cause maybe. Just maybe. I wont.

Swing your hips and giggles.

I should give it a shot

2009-12-16T12:52:00.002+08:00

gmbr tkleh lawak lg ke huh? HAHAHAHAHHAHA

To be or not to be? Haha. Okay first thing first. So there this one guy. Who may or may not be my future boyf. Idk. I'm still thinking. I like him a lot. He's nice to me *sometimes. But some of my friends tak suka I dgn dia. Cam sedih gila. They all know what he did. But I can't help it. I like him. But then I thought, if dgn aeit jubo playboy antarabangsa (HAHAHAHAHA aeit jgn marah I gurau :p) tuh pun I boleh stay lama3. So maybe I boleh handle this guy as well, no? Haha seee I dont fucking know! But my personal therapist (aka Zaki) said that I shouldn't be with him. But my heart said otherwise :S

But whatever. The title said it all. I should give it a shot. Tak cuba tak tau kan? Hee so yeah. But if he screw up. Then I'm sorry. You better get your sorry ass out off my life (!) Cause you had your chance. So please, don't screw up okay? :)

Swing your hips and giggles.

2009-12-13T15:29:00.002+08:00

Hey. Sorry its been so long but I'm here now :) *pstt I keep saying that -.-

Anyways, my life's falling apart right now because of some dude.

that's all. bye

What did I do today 30/11

2009-12-01T12:32:00.004+08:00

I went to the ktm at 10 am and wait for Nick and Atiq. Then when they arrived, ktrang dpt tau yg Raida tgh tido so then tgllah ktrang bertiga. Time tgh tgu train, Raida called saying that she wanted to go but her mom wont let her. So Atiq called her mom and talked talked talked and her mom agreed to let Raida join us. So like yeay! So ktrang tgu Raida dkt kl central. We have our breakfast at burger king and then jalan3. Raida cam lmbt lg nak dtg and we have to take our ticket fast so ktrang pegi dulu. Sampai je dkt midvalley, ktrang pegi dkt cinema. And then jumpa, Nabilah and Syed kajang. They're so nice. So we chilled at Mcd while waiting for Raida. We played the 'penis' game :D Haha. The person who shouted 'penis' the loudest wins. haha. And ofcourse, the winner is Nick! hahaha. Then Raida arrived just in time for the movie. We watched new moon -.- I don't like watching it the 1st time and imagine how I feel when I watched it the 2nd time -.- Erghh. The ending is blurhh. The whole thing is blurhh. Oh, aku tido time tgk new moon. hahaha. They all laughed at me :p hehe

After the movie was over, we had our lunch at delicious (photos will be upload later. I can't find my bloody usb -.-). We ordered 4 food and we shared all of 'em. Which I think its kinda cute. And then we vain vain vain. hehe. After lunch, we went to the Garden and window shop. Then we vain some more. hehe. So at 6 something, ktrang g ktm and waited there and vain. Haha. Sampai kl central, train asek delay je. Annoying betul. Oh and we prank Nabilah and Syed and some other people. Ktrang pretend tejumpa iphone and belakon ckp dgn kawan owner punya phone tuh haha it was funny. Kakak3 dkt belakang tuh semua pecaya! HAHAHAHAHAHA. Bila ktrang ckp ktrang nak simpan, ada yg buat muka hahahaha. But then rahsia tebongka. Ada gmbr Nabilah Radzi kat situ hahaha. Kantoi habis -.- hehe. Then ktrang ddk dkt tepi railway tuh and play the 'penis' game again hahaha. Its fun. Then we safely arrived kat shah alam. Syed and Nabilah tido rumah Nick. And I went home.

You know, I gotta say. Yesterday was sorta the best outing. Because we had like tons of laughter and like the whole day was relaxing. Just sempoi3 je. No trouble or anything. No stress. Something like that. Its fun. I'm totally looking forward for something like this in the future :)

p/s: Nabilah and Syed said I'm cute :p hahahaha

Swing your hips and giggles.

What did I do today 29/11

2009-11-29T21:53:00.002+08:00

I was suppose to spend my day with Raida since today is her birthday tp Nana belum balik lg. Its not fun without her. So instead, I went to the curve with my family. The atmosphere was all christmas-ish and it reminds me of sabah (its a long story. and i dont feel like telling). So yeah. Oh I saw this stall, ada domo kat situ and image of aeit cam instantly pop out -.- hahaha. Okay then otw nk g cinema. Ada this kedai jual baju lawaaaaaaa lawaaaaa tp mahal but whathefuck do I care? I'm flipping rich! hahahahahaha. But yeah, I bought 2 clothes. hehe. Then tgk new moon. Which in my opinion, cam bosan sikit? Kan kan? What a waste of $11 -.- But whatever, it was okay. I rated 5 star. Out of 10 that is. Hehe.

Enough of that. Okay tomorrow I'll be going to Mid Valley with my boys. I gtg now. Bye.

Swing your hips and giggles.

I learn new things.

2009-11-28T22:39:00.003+08:00

I've been attending driving school lately. Oh wait, not exactly lately. I just started, today :p haha. Its actually kinda boring you know. Listening to the motivator talking about law and shits -.- But whatevs, atleast its over. And now, whats left is the computer exam and theory. And after theory, I'll be getting L hehe which means I can totally go to school by scooter. Hee yeay! No more that chinese driver -.- And hmm, I'll be getting licence P next year. Probably february? I don't really mind. Doesn't matter. But what does matter is that I'm afraid that people will start calling me 'minah rempit' like durr? whathefuck even? hello? me? rempit? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. You must be out of your mind -.- But I AM afraid though :S And plus, I don't want to be the only girl who ride scooter to school. Oh god, please! Please please please. Jgn lah kasi aku bawak scooter sorang3. Lg lah org cop rempit en? :C Ish!

Nvm, moving on;
I think I have started falling for you. Like seriously. All the moments we talked on the phone really meant something to me :) I know you are the flirting type but recently I can see the different side of you. But idk, maybe you're just pretending so that I could fall into your trap, no? Idk. I hope not. Okay wait. I think not. I can see and feel that you truly. You know. Love me? hehe. And yesterday, when you scream out loud saying 'iloveyou', it makes me wanna love you more. Haha. I'm sorry I never said 'iloveyou' back :s I will. Don't worry. But not now. Someday. I mean this year okay? okay. :*

Swing your hips and giggles.

Baby, I'm home.

2009-11-27T12:44:00.005+08:00

Hai blogspot! Terlebih dahulu Farr ingin memohon maaf kerana suda lama tak singgah ke sini :) Dan seterusnya, ingin ku mengucapkan selamat hari raya aidiladha kepada semua rakyat malaysia dan happy thank(s) giving kepada anda diluar sana :) hehehe.

Dan dgn ini dimaklumkan bahawa, Izzah Farihah Binti Abd Hakim aka Farr suda hbs kerja hehe. Gaji pun dah dpt hehe. Moto pun dah ada (oh ye, lupa nak bgtau. Farr skrg dah ada moto. Abah belikan. Dan kelas memandu akan bermula pada esok hari iaitu hari sabtu) hehe. Akan tetapi, walaupun dah dpt gaji, sama sekali tidak bermaksud yg Farr akan belanja korang semua. haha. Hanya makhluk ciptaan tuhan yg terpilih sahaja akan menikmati ganjarannya :D bahahaha. Tidak rasa pelik ke anda melihat Farr bertuturan seperti ini? haha sebenarnya Farr baru sahaja melawat blog kak Hanis. Dan mungkin cara kak Hanis bertuturan itu tetiba melekat ke Farr haha pelik sungguh -.-

Anyways, I got only less than a month to party hard with my friends before 2010 :| Ohmygod. Why does I have to be 17? Can't I forever be 16? I want to be 16! 16 is super sweet D: I don't want to 17. It sucks! I don't want to be a senior D: I dont want to face spm D: Omg, too much whining -.- Okay lah, I think I need to stop here. Nak balik kg! hehehe. Bye.

Swing your hips and giggles.

My working days.

2009-11-12T22:19:00.002+08:00

Hai :) Read it. Its fun :D bahahahaa.

1st day of working;
Was a bit boring at first cause tak byk sgt customer and plus panas nk mati. sigh. Then jumpa Mas. Dia keje kat saloon so borak3 jap, beli makanan then sambung keje. Tengah2 keje tuh ternampak Rafiq. Heee my one and only pet brother :) He's so cute in person. Hee then Akk Mas (my 2nd bos nama sama dgn MASdayana :p bahaha) suruh jaga atas so best sikit lah cause ada aircond :D Kak Mas suruh jahit baju so that bila bos tanya bila customer tkde buat apa? Boleh jwb jahit baju hehe but unfortunately, dua jarum berjaya dipatahkan :p hahaha loser gila aku -.-

2nd day of working;
Dtg2 je kena jaga atas. I was darn happy about that sbb kat bawah panas I can't stand that. Hee tp atas boring tkde geng so melepak je memanjang. As in main game, laser and such. And still no customer D:

3rd day of working;
1st time bukak kedai sendiri so I was quite excited :D hee. Tp kena jaga bawak sampai pukul 1 D: Dah lah tk sarapan lg so quite upset but then not really cause I got my very own 1st customer :D hee after 3 days of working, baru dpt jual. huhu. Then at night, kena turun naik turun naik bawak baju and all. Mmg bapak penat -.-

4th day of working;
Dtg2 je kena kemas baju then naik atas, pun kena kemas baju. Then I got my 2nd customer :D hehe. Then Kak Mas call mintak tlg jaga bawah jap. Dpn tuh ada kedai jahit tau, then ada this OKU nari3 hahaha fukken cute gila. Then terjumpa Paan. Dia keje cuci tingkap kat mcd bahahahahaha i can't stop laughing :p hahaha. Then my mom came, jadi customer. hee. She bought 4 things. Thanks :) Oh then later that night, duit short 50 higget. So aku kena ganti since aku jaga butik atas D: fuck.

5th day of working;
Today ditemani oleh Raidah :) Kak Mas ada test so dtg lmbt sikit. But not that lmbt lah she said she'll be coming at 2 tp dtg 11 lbh -.- haha cuak Raidah. Raidah beli baju cotton satu then lunch dgn Acap and Mas :) Acap came just to have lunch with me. Awwww thanks b :') Aku dpt jual byk baju lah jugak. Total semua $327 dpt jual :D hehehe.

6th day of working;
Nothing much happened. sigh

7th day of working;
Dtg2 je ada customer so like early morning dah make 300 bucks. Cool! Then jaga atas blablabla breakfast, dga lagu haha boring much? Then lunch, lunch dgn Syiro and Emir. Thanks guys. I really appreciated it :) After lunch, terus naik atas then ada this one customer (Kak Ru), she wanted to buy a baju kurung for her daughter. Baju tuh plg kurang boleh kasi 80. Dia nak kurang lagi. So she started complaining about this and that. Tapi dia baik so I don't really care. Hehe.

8th day of working;
Still nothing much happened. sigh. Oh oh and today, lgsg tkde sale D:

9th day of working;
Pagi tuh pegi sekolah. Cehh finally -.- Tak bosan sgt lah cause main poker dgn Raidah and Amyra. Hahaha haram jadah main cam sakai -.- Dtg kerja awal sikit today cause Kak Mas ada final test. But still no sale D: Bila Kak Mas dah dtg, aku g jaga atas plak but yeah still no sale D: Then g lunch. Lunch muffin je nak saving and OMG! Fukken omg! Ada 3 guys kat stall tuh and I just notice that ada yg hot :O haha. So like Imma buy muffin everyday :D heee. I ain't no stalker nor an obsessive freak. I. JUST. LOVE. MUFFIN :P bahahahaha -.- okay dah stop. Then before balik, singgah saloon beli make up haha dorang lelong :D

The 10th day of working will be tomorrow :) So wish me luck kay? Oh and btw, I'll be working until 26 or nov not 22. Dorang extend -.- haihh but whatever, wish me luck :)

Swing your hips and giggles.

2009-11-08T22:34:00.002+08:00

I've been working for 5 days now. And I just got back from work. I'm not in the mood to tell all about it. So maybe next time kay? kay. Night :)

So far, it hurts

2009-11-03T19:42:00.003+08:00

Hai blogspot :) Long time no see huh? Anyways, I've been single for 5 months today and yeah so far, it hurts. I know I'm not allowed to complain because its literally my fault but whatever. Its still hurt. Do you know what hurts the most? The part that he is so close to me and still so far :| I know I've been blind all this while but I can see now. And I'm truly sorry for pushing you away. I regret that. But everybody deserve a second chance right? So what are you waiting for? I'm right here :) And I will always be waiting. Okay no. Not always. But right now, I am feeling like waiting for you :D haha pstt. Okay I have 2 great news to share (!) Omg omg. Do you want to hear it? Omg omg. haha. Gedik plak -.-

1) Exam is over! Wuhuuu. I don't have to go to school that often anymore. yeay. And I don't have to see 'you know who' face anymore. hehe. three cheer :D

2) I HAVE A JOB. AN EFFING JOB (!) haha. I'm pretty much excited now. I'll be starting tomorrow. From 9.30 am to 9 pm :) Wish me luck okay?

Oh and one more thing. You know yesterday I was thinking to shut my blogspot down. But now since I have a job. I would so totally love to share it with all of you :) I will tell all about my first day of work tomorrow.

Swing your hips and giggles.

Ohai blogspot :)

2009-10-29T16:10:00.002+08:00

Oh gee I'm sorry for abandon blogspot :/ Feel awful now. Okay no I feel normal.

Anyways, now is exam week. And farr tgl lg 2 hari je so yeay ! :D haha. Lately everything is fine. Lie. Well sort of. Okay yeah fine fine. And hm I have a new crush, I'm broke, still hate life, going to look for a job this friday, and hmm oh yeah I'm ready to have a new boyf (!) hee. But I'm going to be really picky this time. I'm looking for long term relationship. Not 2 -3 month. Pstt. Sick of that.

Okay I'm gonna take a nap now. Sorry again bloggy for abandon you. Did mean too. Write to you soon :) bye.

Swing your hips and giggles.

What did I do today 18/10

2009-10-19T16:19:00.004+08:00

This thing happened on Saturday :)

Went to 4 open houses.

#1 - Faqiha's

Arrived at 2 something and only Atiq was there and the rest was Faqiha's brother's friends which also my seniors so tkde lah segan en. Maklumlah Farr kan segan dgn semua org -.- Psttt. Lama cmtu yg lain pun dtg. Meriah sikit lah. Oh OMG Helmi, OMG. Kurus gila D: Tulang kot? Bodo lah kau. Gemuk lah balik D: Ishhh. Nick, Yasmin and Fitrah was there as well. So like ada geng lah gak. Chilled there until 4 something.

#2 - Sofea's

Acap picked me up at 4 something. Dah sampai kat sempang tuh, Acap tanak keluar. Dia segan -.- Aku igtkn aku sorang je. Haihh. So lepak padang jap. 15 minutes after that g balik kat sempang tuh. Pun tanak keluar gak -.- Aku lagi lah segan nak turun sorang2. So tgu dlm kereta then Sofea dgn Umie dtg paksa keluar haha. Last3 aku keluar, Acap stay. Saw a few familiar faces there including Danial and Alep. Hahaha DAAAAAAAAAAA. Okay sorry -.-

#3 - Maryam Adila's

Acap ptt hanta aku balik rumah but nooooo instead he took me to Maryam's which also in section 7 so whatever lah. Almost everyone kat situ looks familiar to me. And I look familiar to them too. Arrived je I went straight inside. Maryam said that Nick and the rest is at the back so yeah. Masuk je semua like pandang and smile. So I assume they know me? Haha wtf lame gile -.-

OKAY SERIOUSLY I AM TIRED OF WRITING THIS WHOLE LONG STORY SHIT THING -.- SORRY BAD TIMING. I KNOW MY BLOG IS GETTING BORING BUT MY TUMBLR IS GETTING EXCITING AND FAMOUS. HAHA WTF. ANYWAYS;

#4 - Uncle Adi's - Setiawangsa, KL

So yeah I went to KL that night. The End.

Imagine how tired I am on Saturday? Hmmm. Yeah. Okay. Okay I'm tired now. Plus I have exam tomorrow. So yeah. Sorry and goodbye :)

Swing your hips and giggles.

What did I do today 16/10

2009-10-17T04:09:00.004+08:00

Sleep at 3 something and woke up at 10 or 11 something? Took a shower, breakfast, blablabla then online :) I open my tumblr and Shaz was on. She said she already send the stickers. And hopefully I will get them next week. Thanks again Shaz :) After Zuhur I took a nap. Then at 3 I woke up and get ready to go to Laila's house and meet Rafiq. But Raida text suruh g library dulu cause she already there. So okay lah g rumah Laila pukul 5 lps study. G library pakai bju kurung -.- Tau tk bpk segan?! Tp nasib baik kat luar tuh ada majlis thingy so pretty much ramai yg pakai baju kurung. Hehe. Then Rafiq text, dia tkdpt tgu so yeah I was a bit disappointed D: So tkjd g rumah Laila. Sorry Laila D: So stay kat library sampai ptg. As usual, saw many familiar faces. I didn't bring books sbb igtkn skjp je kat library. Haihh. Menyesal -.- Blablabla. Went home.

Online facebook and tumblr as usual. Myspace? Takde masa. Bosan cm babi. Haihh. I have this other tumblr friend named Mei and she's from Malaysia :) Our conversation seems to be flowing tonight. So she make this shout out video for her favourite tumblr friends and lucky me I was one of 'em so yeah I was excited or maybe over excited? :P Thanks Mei, you totally make my day :) Ailafyu. If you want to watch the video, simply click here.

Oh anyways watch this; http://nimbb.com/v/e482dceb11

A video of me :D HAHAHA. But quick. After 30 days, the site will delete it. Thank nimbb.com, you totally understand :) Hehe. Yeah, view it! The video and my tumblr blog. Oraitt? Thanks :)

Swing your hips and giggles.

What did I do today 15/10

2009-10-17T03:39:00.003+08:00

After back from school I went straight away to my computer and play farmville. Oh wait, I already said it in my previous post. So skip skip skip. After harvesting, I open my tumblr and upload some photos. Blablabla. Then I saw this post, it was Shaz. She's from Australia. And she showed this sticker thingy and she said she would love to send them to whoever who want 'em. So I was trying my luck and asked her if she would send them all away to Malaysia and she said YES (!) Sumpah I was like 'omg shaz omg omg iloveyou shaz omg omg :O' Haha yeah I know gedik nak mampus and she said it was okay. She don't mind sending it to me :') Awww Shaz iloveyou. Seee this is effing why I love tumblr so much. Its bringing people closer to each other like no matter where you are and I'm not saying this cause Shaz is sending me a sticker haha gosh no. You should create an account and feel it yourself :)

Later that night, me and my family went to Lanee's house for jamuan raya. Its for all the penduduk section 7 yg ddk rumah banglo and semiD. Saw a few familiar faces like Farouq, Farah aka Porcelain Red, Mika, Amirah and ofcourse Lanee :D haha. But whatheck, they're all my neighbours so I guess like everybody look familiar to me :D haha -.- Sorry. Anyways I ate this lamb loaf I think? Idk. My dad sponsor the sheep and hell it was delicious :) There was a performance, quizzes/games, and lucky draw. Our house won :D hee. And so is the other 5-6 houses? Then when home, open the hamper and sign in to tumblr :D hehehe tumblr is my husby :-*

Swing your hips and giggles.

Oh hunny, bunny love you

2009-10-15T16:35:00.003+08:00

It turns out that my rasberry wasnt ready :D hee only 66% percent. Andddddd all sudden I have an idea on what to say. Miracle is it? :P haha. Okay I'm crapping -.- Sorry. I haven't had my nescafe today. Hmmm. Anyhoo I have this poem that I wrote few weeks ago. Don't laugh. Cause it's kinda funny and weird and confusing. Hehe. Well thats me :D I named it HUNNY BUNNY.

Bunny love hunny
Forever bunny will
Please hunny please
But,
Oh hunny, bunny love you

Bunny bunny
Hunny have baby
I know you can move on
But,
Oh hunny, bunny love you

Baby meant a lot
Bunny is history
Hunny stick with baby
But,
Oh hunny, bunny love you

Baby still new
Hunny still love bunny right?
Please hunny please
But,
Oh hunny, bunny love you

Hunny love baby
Hunny love bunny
But hunny choose baby
Oh,
Hunny, bunny love you

Seeeeee veryy confusing right? But its cute. Hehehe. I love thissss. It's about me and this and this. Kinda involving third party. If you can figure it out, I totally love you :-*

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Here we go again

2009-10-15T15:57:00.002+08:00

David: Whats your tumblr url? izzahfarihah.tumblr?
Me: No. farrilorarocks.tumblr
David: No. Your url! izzah farihah?
Me: FARRILORAROCKS !
David: Yeah I knowww
Me: Dah tu kau ckp izzahfarihah.tumblr byk kali tuh buat apa?
*all laughed*

*Again, I'm too lazy to highlight the important words but just read it aite? :)

That's David John, the indian whom I used to hate. There's this website that instead of .tumblr, you can change it to .tk so he's trying to make me do it. Which I won't cause I love tumblr. I'm obsess with it and since the creator of tumblr is a guy so I'm proud to say that I'm married to it :p HAHAHAHAHA. Overnyeee. Anyways, I'm the one who gets David interested in tumblr *wink. And not only that. I'm also the one who gets Nabil and Amin interested in Farmville and Cafe World. HAHAHA. And from I see it, I think Amin is kinda sorta a little bit addicted to Cafe World. Hehe.

Anyway, not much happen in school today. The boys was gay as usual. And there was a fight between muslim and non-muslim. It's quite funny though. Hehe. Oraitt then. I'm out of idea. And plus I gotta harvest me rasberry. See yaa.

Swing your hips and giggles.

Erghh erghh and more erghh

2009-10-14T16:37:00.006+08:00

I . HATE . PHYSICS

My classmate knows, my friends knows, my parents knows, and maybe my teacher knows too? IDK. But I think she knows since I've been cutting her class a lot lately. And she's kinda mad about it but whatever. I hate physics.

I have drop account before and now I'm taking 9 subject. And I don't want to be a fool by taking 8. So yeah. I just have to take physics no matter how much I hated it. I'm targeting at least 6 credit in SPM. And my final exam is just next week. And I don't really care if I fail it. Cause I wont work hard on it. Zya said that cikgu nak potong my markah so yeah. Whatever. Not caring. My ambition have nothing to do with physics. I'm MORE worry about Chemistry. I want to ace it.

Swing your hips and giggles.

I'm obsess with it

2009-10-13T20:57:00.006+08:00

Hey blogspot. I miss you. Sorry for not updating you. It's just I love tumblr more. I went to school yesterday and everybody was like 'Izzah kau dtg?' -.- Okay wtf you guys? I know I'm the worst girl in class but pleaaaaaseeeee I'm offended. The percentage of loving you guys is now down to 86%. Huh. Anyways, I've been going to the library these past two days and I love it. Keep seeing the same faces but idc. Oh and I met a lot of my primary friends. I miss them :)

Btw, I'm envy with all the f3's. They are free and we are not -.-

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BACKSEATGOODBYE

2009-10-10T04:17:00.004+08:00

I didn't mean to brag but oh my gosh. I FREAKINGLY IN LOVE WITH TUMBLR <3

Wanna why? Because people are all friendly there and they reply to our text and reblog our stuff which is so damn cool. And best of all, I actually befriend with 'em. And if it wasn't for tumblr, I wouldn't know that there is a band called 'back seat goodbye'. You should listen to it. They told me to tell others. So this is what I'm doing. HAHAHA -.- Sorry I just had my coffee but I'm still crack -.- Anyways, please do listen to it. The song Technicolor Eyes make me wanna dance. Seriously. Go go go go go. GO GOOGLE IT (!)

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The type that make me go lala #1

2009-10-10T01:05:00.004+08:00

Btw, I'm too lazy to highlight the important words. But enjoy :)

First thing first. I don't care about his appearance but he gotta be cute. I want somebody who can control me because I can be stubborn at times. Someone who is very loyal, kind, fun to be around with, down to earth and likes to have fun. I don't want someone who is very boring like every time we text he would be out of words (referring to the one who is in love with me which I want to name him 'guy 1'). Ergh fuck you. That's lame you bull. I want someone who can make me feel excited and have butterflies every time he text or call. Someone who can make me feel worry if he didn't text me in the next 30 seconds. And definitely someone who can protect me. Even though I'm big. I don't want my future boyf to be a weeny. Fuck. Yucks. Oh and I'm looking for a bad guy. You know, the types that breaks the rules, cut school etc. The one like me. So that we can have something in common. Well lets face it. If I dated a nerd. I would be attaches to school 24/7 and he would make me go to the library like every fucking Saturday and that would be our 'usual' dating place and instead of making out, he would prefer to do some math?! HAHAHAHA. Fuck the shitt off. Okay no offense fellow nerds. I just make that shitt up and I'm sorry. Haha. But you got the point right? So yeah.

Although I have two guys waiting in line and one of 'em just said 'iloveyou' but I'm sorry. You guys are just not my type. Okay that was harsh. I mean, I'm not the girl for you. But don't get me wrong. You guys are effing awesome. You make my heart glow at first. But as time past by, I felt nothing. There's nothing special about you guys. No offense but we are better of as a friends. Okay imagine if we hook up, I would feel excited for the first 2 month. But what happen next? Will I stay loyal to you? IDEK. See you get what I mean? But just so you know, the other guy (guy 2) who is in like with me is quite okay. I feel all excited when he text me. And I must say, I in like with you before. But like I said. As time past by, I felt nothing. I'm truly am sorry.

So due to that, I just want to stay single and keep on searching for the right one. You know my secret of having so many exes is because I accepted every single one (okay not really, I rejected a few) who proposed. And thank you to that, I have experience a lot. But fuck you to that, I have been hurt a lot. And that's not good. So this time I'm going to be very careful. I don't want to be desperate anymore. And I will stop flirting with guys. And most of all, I will stop giving my number to every cute guy who asked for it. I know I sound like a slutty whore. Eiuww fuck. But that's all news. Fucking shitt won't happen twice (I hope). I just want someone like me. Bad and fuck up all together. Now would that be cute? HAHAHA. -.- Sorry. I haven't had my nescafe so I'm a bit crack. But I'm fucking serious about this post. And I will never change it no matter what. Okay I'm done for now. But I will add some more after I had my nescafe. Or maybe whenever I feel like it. And yes, this is not just it okay. I have plenty more. Goodnight. And I'm sorry if anyone of you is offended.

Swing your hips and giggles.

My open house

2009-10-08T20:44:00.003+08:00

I had an open house today. I only invited the one who is/are close to me. There was Raidah, Mas, Nabilah, Nick, Munifah, Mazrul, Atiq, Amin, Paan, Farouq, Sara, Acap, Muz, Muadzam, Ezzat, Azman, Idzudee, Mirul, Azrieman, Yan, Yasmin and Fitrah. Thanks guys for coming :) At first dorang semua cam bosan je cause ayam tak masak lagi but then they all get excited to cook the chicken haha comel je. Everything was okay. But too much sampah aa. Korang ni dah f4 pun makan sepah3 haihh :p haha. Dah puas makan and making mess, semua masuk dalam since kat luar panas. Afnan's friends was at the family area (ada tv and comfy sofa) while my friends dkt guest area (tkde tv but the sofa was comfy :D) Chill there for awhile. We talked and laughed and laughed and talked. Haha as usual. Bdk laki buat lawak semua jadi hahaha. Then ada yg still lepak and ada yg tido and ada yg pegi makan lagi. Blablablablablablabla. Tinggal Mas, Mazrul, Nabilah, Yan and Azrieman je. Oh and Fitrah and Yas sekali but dorang g makan while the rest tgk tv. Kat living room tuh ktrang discovered that there was a bonding between all of us (or something like that).

Yan: Asal kat sekolah tak macam ni?
Azrieman: Kat sekolah semua penting.

HAHAHAHAHA. Salah lah bodo. Ktrang lain3 kelas cmne nak lepak. But it's true. Rasa cm ktrang rapat je but kat sekolah tego pun jarang. What a waste right? :/ Then the boys semua nak balik. Hanya Azrieman je dpt 10. We had a little agreement while the rest dpt 5 je :D Tinggal Yas and Fitrah je. Borak3 - Vain3 - Balik. Gosh I feel tired right now. And hungry ! I'm cooking maggi right now haha. And now I'm done eating :D haha. Anyways, thank you so much guys for coming. It meant alot to me since this is my first time throwing an open house. Thanks again. I love you guys <3

Swing your hips and giggles.

Wishing all the PMR victim

2009-10-07T14:25:00.003+08:00

Ops sorry for the late post but I'm not too late to wish you guys right? Okay.

I would like to wish all of my juniors a very very very good luck and all the best. I know you guys can do it cause PMR is not as hard as trial. And your result is going to be great. You guys studied right? (some of 'em I guess. Last night I saw some of f3 still online-ing myspace/facebook -.- haih) Okay whatever. Just do your best.

And to my beloved adik, akk tau adik boleh buat. Adik pandai :) && you have the cutest voice ever (!) :D I love you <33

Swing your hips and giggles.

What did I do today 6/10

2009-10-06T22:30:00.005+08:00

Warning! This post going to be long. But the content is interesting. But not to late to press X

Today me, Nabilah, Anne, and Raidah went shopping around KL. wuhuu. It's a girls day out. Early morning about 7.15 arrived at 9 (aku tak ponteng eh. parents aku tau). Tgu Raidah then gerak rumah Anne jap. Her room is so like hotel. Best je kalau sleepover. Then Azwan send as to ktm. Thanks :) Tgu Firr punya lah lama sampai missed 2 train. Last3 dia tak gerak -.- Haihh. Oh and before get on the train Raidah cam tksdp hati and she almost tanak ikut tp tkjd and tkde benda belaku pun haha. Sampai KL central - makan - monorail - bukit bintang. Pegi this cute little shop called The Living Room Shop and they got such an amazing bag. Like omg. Too bad big boss tk kasi much money :/ Alahaii.

After that g Pavilion and went straight to Cotton On. Clothes semua omg. Ktrang cam hyper gila. Nyanyi3 sambil jalan3. Haha. Window shop here, there. Hee so much fun. Went to Eclipse. Time prom kang nak beli dress kt situ lah. Lawa gila semua. Hehe. Pegi M.A.C then Nichii then Diva something. Haha. And just so you know. Every store yg ktrang pegi mesti tgkp gmbr hehe wajib kot. Dah puas window shop (I was the only one yg window shop while the others bought something. boohoo pity me :/) pegi foodcourt. Damn. I was craving for Teppanyaki. So simple and delicious. Hee. Raidah and Nabilah ate some Korean food while Anne ate this big, I mean BIG plate of rice something. After done eating, g KLCC - KL Central - Ktm.

Oh dkt ktm. OMG. Ktrang kena berdiri tau then dpn ktrang ada this one indon guy about 16 or 17 and still in school uniform, omg ktrang semua cam omg omg cutenya. haha. Dia tido tau so his face was facing done. And Anne cam cover3 nak tgk luar then bend down a bit just to see his face. hahaha. Dia pakai headphone so pretty much he can't hear us. Then bila aunty sblh dia bgn, I cpt3 ddk. Haha. Amek kesempatan :p I dkt2kan diri dgn that guy and our hand touch :O haha. Oh and don't forget about photos. I took a picture with him. But without him noticing it lah :D Hehe. Then took a cab to Anne's house. Tido jap. Then balik.

Thank you guys. I have such a fun time hanging out with you all. We should do it more often <3

Swing your hips and giggles.

I like that boom boom pow

2009-10-05T23:11:00.004+08:00

Went to school today. I know finally right? Everybody was like keep on asking where I've been and its quite annoying. Haha. I missed alot of things :( Fuck. Oh and I still miss you Mas. Asal tak dtg? Grr. Oh hmm not much thing happen in school today. Just random and normal and boring as usual thats all. Then after school, Raidah, Nabilah and Anne chill at my place for awhile. Then we went out to 9. Settle some cool awesome stuff (!) I'm so excited about that. Gosh. I wish I have something to give in :/ Fuck.

Oh and tomorrow me and all those 3 bitches going shopping (!) :D yeay. I'll update later okay? Goodnight :)

Swing your hip and go to bed.

Somebody save me

2009-10-04T03:34:00.002+08:00

I want you all to know that I'm not looking for an open relationship. I'm not interested at this point. I know right. This is so not me -.- I would have had a replacement by now. Idk what happen to me. Maybe I learn something from my previous relation. Hmm what was it again? Oh yea, stay single if you don't want to get hurt. A-huh. Oh and boys like wine. Don't get too drunk. Though there is this two guys waiting in line. And I'm afraid to turn them down. I'm not really good at rejecting people. Remember what happen to me and S? Yea. But they haven't pop out the question yet. Fuck. Please don't.

Oh btw I have a crush on ehemehem :D I know I'm easy to fall in like. Some of you will think like 'ew farr, he's not your type' or 'izzah, kau suka dia?' Fuck off. Leave me and my crush alone. Nama pun crush wei. Kalau boyf, yela I will be careful. Haihh. Asshole

Swing your hips and giggles.

They try to make me go to rehab

2009-10-03T23:30:00.004+08:00

I thought of going to tell everything about what happen to me lately. But no. I don't want to embarrass myself but to those who already knew, please don't judge me okay? I have a really ruff week. And you have no idea what happen to me. I'm only 16 and I wasn't suppose to suffer like this. Really cruel you know :( But I'm okay now. Literally. And I will start going to school this monday. Gosh it's been a week and I really miss my friends. Especially Mas. Haihh. Tak saba! ahaha. See I'm okay now right? :D Hee okay great.

Swing your hips and giggles.

My tumblr is getting famous !

2009-09-27T17:56:00.003+08:00

OHMYGOSH, MY TUMBLR IS GETTIN FAMOUS (!) HELL YEAH ! ALOT OF PEOPLE WHO IS NOT FROM MALAYSIA IS FOLLOWING ME <33 AND I AM HONOURED THAT HOSPITALBEDS FOLLOWED ME BEFORE BUT THEN I STOP POSTING STUFF SO SHE STOP FOLLOW :( OH WELL, TUMBLR IS AWESOME (!)

Feel free to follow me too. Simply click the 'tumblr' link ---> and follow !

What did I do today 25/9

2009-09-26T20:37:00.005+08:00

Yesterday was a great day (!) Went to Kompleks that morning then walked to SACC. I want to colour my hair so I went to Thomas and Guys and the price is quite okay. Then I called my mom and she said go ask my dad then blablablabla. I went back to Kompleks. Stayed there for a little while then my mom suruh dye kat Kompleks je. Her friend, which also my senior's mom, ada saloon kat situ. So colour kat situ jela. The price was okay jgk. Tp Thomas and Guys lg murah lah. So I picked the colour dark blonde mix golden mahogany :D And it turns out great! View it here. Totally worth 130 of my money.

Then pergi rumah aunty pukul 4 something. Rumah terbuka. Dpt jumpa Syakir/Shakir lg. Haha. He is such an adorable baby. Especially his eyes. Walaweh, besa baii. haha. Then went home. Uncle Lan followed. Hee me and Afnan played with Syakir/Shakir for quite a while. Hehe. Afnan really enjoyed playing with him. He is such a darl. Suka ketawa best je. Then that night, we had a family dinner. All 7 of us. Celebrating Aiman's and Umi's birthday. At Victoria Station in Subang. I ordered VS Sizzling Steak. Hehe yumm yumm. Then we took some pictures and went home. To me it's really an exciting day. Thanks everyone :)

Swing your hips and giggles.

Mind my words

2009-09-24T20:39:00.003+08:00

Something really fuck up is happening in my life right now. And I don't fucking feel like sharing with the rest of the whole. And you, yeah you, the one who is fucking reading this fucking shit. You'll be spending 5 minutes trying to figure out what's the matter with me. But don't even waste your fucking time. It's none of your fucking business. And I hate you.

It's eid. I'm sorry.

But fuck you. What do I care about eid. Sure it's the month that we have to be happy but what's the point of being happy if I have to let go the one who I fucking care for?

Fuck yourself 'cause I ain't helping.

Exactly how I feel

2009-09-24T03:33:00.003+08:00

I wrote this shit a couple of months ago. hehe. Don't laugh. Just read and press X

Every time when I close my eyes
I will see you standing by my side
The flowers were everywhere, beautifully blooming
But when I wake up, I was just dreaming

I had you once and I blew my chance
Now I will never have this dance
You hold her hands and hug her tight
I had a nightmare of you being her knight

You said I love you and I love you too
But the words you saying, it ain't true
I love your smile cause I think it's cute
But just so you know, I ain't no prostitute

You called me and you said you miss me
I said 'yeah right' and you said 'you don't believe me?'
How could I believe you when you are lying
Gosh, you are the reason why I'm dying

You don't drive me anywhere but totally insane
Every time you see me, I'll smile but you don't see my pain
Days went by and we keep on fighting
All I ever wanted was you to stop pretending

Little grey shirt is on top of me
Now whats missing is a cup of tea
My life is awful without you beside me
How I wish things can turn back like it should be

Swing your hips and giggles.

One of the reason why I love tumblr

2009-09-24T01:22:00.003+08:00

Is that I can post as much picture as I want.

Btw, my hair look nice :D

A really pain in the butt

2009-09-23T23:31:00.003+08:00

Raya was okay. Got a loads of duit raya but not as many as last time though. Haih. Nvm. I was planning to work after the final exam anyways. So like JACKPOT (!) haha. You know, I'm starting to miss my friends :( Where you losers at?

Anyways, after watching that not-so-scary-movie-after-all, Congkak, I've starting to feel scare like before. Well you know, the feeling that I happen to got after watching Pocong 2 and 3 :| Yess. That one. It's very sickening you know. I've been sleeping with my brothers for 2 days now. And tonight will make it 3 -.- How bout that? I'm 16 and I'm sleeping with my brothers. AWESOME! -.- Atleast things can't get any worse. Or can it? agsagskdaskd FUCK.

Swing your hips and giggles.

1st day of Raya

2009-09-22T20:56:00.001+08:00

Copied this from tumblr.

I have embarrass myself on the 1st day of Raya D: Boohoo. I slept on a sofa in the living room. And it is filled with boys. Which is my cousins. And my butt is facing them :O How awful is that? My guessing, VERY (!) What is wrong with me? Okay before I felt asleep, the living room was empty. So I thought it was okay to sleep there. But then again, I was wrong D: Stupid stupid stupid me >:8/ Fuck.

Swing your hips and giggles.

Petang Raya

2009-09-19T17:26:00.004+08:00

Anyway, I want to take this oppurtunity to wish each and one of you a SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI MAAF ZAHIR BATIN. And if I ever done anything wrong to you, I'm seeking for your forgiveness. I never meant to hurt you. It just happen. And to the one I love the most. I know I have hurt you so many times. I'm sorry. And I'm truly regret it. Have a great life and I hope we can see each other again someday :)

Swing your hips and giggles.

Last day of Ramadhan

2009-09-19T16:26:00.006+08:00

Yeay. This is the last day of getting up early. The last day of sleeping all day. The last day of feeling tired. And most importantly, the last day of fasting (!) Just a couples of hours before Syawal. Hee can't wait yaww. I have clean my wardrobe, arrange every stuff, and I just baked a Marble Cake. Oh speaking of cake, the brownies that I baked yesterday. Dah nak habis. Hahaha. My grandma said it was delicious :D Kudos to me. Oh and I'm proudly to announce that I,

PUASA PENUH (!) TAK TINGGAL SATU PUN. hahaha

I feel like it was just yesterday the first day of Ramadhan. Wow. Time does flies so fast :O The next thing you knew, wowzer, Syawal (!) I haven't done anything good in Ramadhan. I'm always a badass bitch. Can't change who I am. That's for sure. But my old habit doesn't came on. Thank god. I want to end it once and for all. *if you're my closest friend, you would understand this.

Yesterday I helped my mom unwrap the hamper, isi duit raya, and download some hari raya songs to play on the first day of raya. It was a bit tiring though. I have to bring down my stereo and the two speakers and put it together. Then I have to do this, do that. Pstt. And the boys played bunga api and mercun kat padang. All of my siblings stay up last night. Including the smallest, Aiman. What a shocker.

Swing your hips and giggles.

Meet the newbies

2009-09-18T17:18:00.005+08:00

Good news.
My two adorable contact lens dah sampai ! :D haha. Satu warna hijau (my dad said nmpk cm pontianak -.-) and the other one is black. Yg hijau takkan dipakai selalu. It will not macth with my clothes or shoe or handbag. And plus, I look weird when I wore them.

Haha. And of course these.

Okay got to go now. I'm baking brownies for break fast ! And I will bake one for eid too.

Swing your hips and giggles.

Dear 'future us',

2009-09-17T21:43:00.009+08:00

Byy, let's get drunk. I want a baby ! And I want it to be just like this. If it's a girl, I want to name it Qistina Zahra. And if it's a boy, I want to name it Irwan Farish. Just imagine how wonderful our life's would be :) Kalau takdpt mcm ni, kita putus. Bia I buat dgn laki lain. hahaha. I nak mcm ni !

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA bodo gila -.- But seriously, I want just like this (!)

The remaining four

2009-09-17T17:33:00.004+08:00

Today is the last day of school before cuti raya. And I didn't want to come since my classmate semua pemalas tanak dtg. Haha. Tapi mas paksa gak dtg -.- Haha but I'm glad that I came. I got to spent time with my 3 favourite girls <3 Tak ramai mana pun yg dtg. My class suma ada 3 org je including me. And I'm the only girl -.- I joined 4 ik2 for the first period. Then Raida picked me up and took me to ICT lab haha cehh. We watched all of our memorable photos and videos. And we truly miss that moment. We were so young and wild and free. Hahaha lyric mana lah ni :P After the first two period were over, me, Raida, Mas and Nabilah went to my class since it's empty. We took alot of pictures and videos of us singing some songs haha goodtimes :) Arep, Bob, Mazrul and Azman were there to join us. Tapi kejap je.

Then we went to 4ik1. Muadzam, Ezzat, Muz, Sobri, Sabrina and Fitrah were there. We talked and laughed, laughed and talked. I never knew that they could be so funny :p hahaha. Pastu g surau sbb ada majlis khatam quran. Gila ramai unexpected people kat dpn tuh. Saif was one of them. Ktrang kacau3 dia. Haha. When the majlis was started, I instantly felt asleep hehe. Then tebgn bila majlis dah nak habis. hehehe. Ada sesi salam3 hari raya bersama guru. I was the first one to hug Maizan :p haha. By far, she's the nicest principle in SMK S9. Then before balik, we took some pictures with the khatam boys. Haha. What a day. Totally going to be in my 'i'm going to miss this time' list. haha.

Swing your hips and giggles.

Raya balik mana?

2009-09-16T17:05:00.002+08:00

Eff. I effing hate that question! Not only that I always raya kat shah alam but the fact that I have no REAL kampung, really pissed me off. Grr. I'm so jealous of all the peoples who got to raya in Kelantan, Kedah, Terengganu, Negeri Sembilan, Johor, Pahang and etc. Doens't it sound like wow? For once, I want to celebrate raya at some place else. Ni tak, shah alam shah alam shah alam. Apa yang best sgt shah alam ni? Fucker lah. I want to experience the feeling where I got to sleep in a wooden house that is fill with fresh air, amazing view like literally semua hijau, cows and chickens everywhere, kids playing fireworks/crackers at night, pelita here and there, lampu liplap all over the kampung, and at some point the neighbours semua gather and help each other to make ketupat, rendang and such. Ahh it's sound so wonderful. And peaceful. Well despite that bugs are everywhere and probably there will be no coverage and no aircond and no good toilets and the wooden floor will be all yucky and I might get scare at night because of the wooden window thingy. HAHAHAHAHA. The last part. Oh myy, so childish :p Just so you know, I am a coward when it comes to ghost -.- Anyway, that is what kampung is all about right? And the best thing that I like about living in kampung is that you got to live in the same roof with your super hot cousins (!) hahaha. And plus rapatkan hubungan right? Haaaa kan elok tuh. Haihh. I want a real kampung so badly! With sawah padi. Lots of 'em.

I will live in kampung when I'm old. So that my grandchild's will experience it. And my house will be the biggest there. And made of wood in the outside but inside waaa batu bata. haha. Bia jadi the only luxury house in that kampung. Baru cucu cicit aku nak balik. Nenek dia kaya :p haha

Swing your hips and giggles.

You go on with this, you'll die

2009-09-16T14:45:00.002+08:00

Why everyone keep on stepping on my head? Am I too nice? Okay so what if I RARELY mad at someone, and so what if I RARELY scold someone, and so what if I always happy or sporting and such. But that doesn't mean that you can easily step on my head. I have had it enough. And I know that I already said it in my old post about wanting to take an action about all this shit but still, I haven't done any. Fuckk. It's not that I'm too weak. It's just that I don't have the guts to do so. I was born to scold my siblings. But when it comes to friends, I just like. Like. Like. Erghh. Fuck. Like. What is the word? Haaa sentap? Yea okay sentap. Like that. I don't know why. Maybe my perikemanusiaan is too high.

Fuck.

But I can promise you this, if you ever cross the line, EVER, I will beat you down asshole (!) * I hope

Swing your hips and giggles.

What did I do today 13/7

2009-09-14T16:05:00.003+08:00

Went shopping with my family yesterday at Subang Parade. At first I wanted to go to Sunway which is just near by but my mom doesn't want too :( Haihh. I bought a pair of heel and a black cardigan there. Oh and since I'm fatter now, I bought 2 floral dress. Hehe. Quite pretty though. Cuma kinda weird cause this is like the first time I bought a dress. I always thought that its funny to wear one of those but since my idol is wearing it so I should too :D haha. Then we went to Toys R us to buy Aiman's birthday present. Gosh. Going in there totally reminds me of my childhood :') Then I went to Sasa to buy my cosmetic for raya haha. Well you can't visit peoples house without looking extra good. Haha. I bought a buy one free one lipstick and eye liner. Doesn't cost me that much. Oh and I also bought EMINEM'S LATEST ALBUM, RELAPSE (!) I'm so freaking excited about that. Haha. I have been Em's fan since standard 4 and I owned 2 of his album cd :D You guys should buy one too. :p haha

Btw, remember the post that I posted about me wanting a LV bag? Well I got one (!) Seriously. And it's original. hehe.

Swing your hips and giggles.

I will update tomorrow

2009-09-13T21:28:00.001+08:00

I HAVE TWO STORY TO TELL. HEE BUT NOT NOW. TOMORROW OKAY?
HEHE CAN'T WAIT (!)

Balik kampung

2009-09-13T01:34:00.005+08:00

I wanna type in bahasa.

Buka kat rumah nenek harini. After terawih, main mercun dgn adik-beradik. Main mercun kat rumah nenek mcm satu tradisi. Main mercun naga, gasing and bunga api. Yeye aku tau, mercun yg bluerkk punya hahaha bialah kg lah wei buat apa nak main yg kuat3. Lgpn kat dpn rumah nenek, rumah ketua polis :O haha. Tak gentar pun. Bila polis tuh balik en, aku cam 'ohh polis eh? haaa amek kau amek kau *sambil paling mercun' hahaha bongok.

Okay my BM sucks -.-

Anywho, 15 minutes after that. My cousins came to join us. Gosh. I miss the twins. They grown. So cuttteeeeee. Serious mcm upin ipin doe. Byk tanya bagai. Hahaha. Then my uncle(s) came to have a chit chat with my father. 20 minutes after that, we went home. Oh sad to say, my grandma doesn't want to stay at my house for raya :'( My house is bigger than yours lah nenek. Dah lah anak ramai, cucu belambak, cicit pun dah berbelas. Mana muat nenek oii. Haihh apa lah.

You know, it's been so long since I last went to Singapore :( Nak raya kat sanaaaaaaaa!

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Update

2009-09-13T00:36:00.002+08:00

Now that I have set my blog to invite readers only. It's difficult to increase my viewers point but its okay. At least that certain someone will not be able to read my blog ever again. Psttt. Annoying betul -.- Dah baca pastu nak bising3 and no amin, I'm not talking about you. Hahaha. Lgpn I don't care about blogspot that much. I'm into tumblr not. It's much more fun than this. Hehe. Speaking of tumblr, I'm going to update my tumblr. Hee chow.

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New Crush

2009-09-11T20:27:00.000+08:00

Have you ever feel the feeling when you are not sure whether you should like this guy or not then suddenly he appear in your dreams. And when you wake up, you feel like he is the one? I just got that feeling. It was a very simple dream. And yet it is enough to make me like him. Hehe. But it was pretty sweet. But at the same time, it was quite shocking though. Well you know, I never thought that I will like him. It's effing weird. But whathell, I like you anyways :)

Swing your hips and giggles.

2009-09-11T13:11:00.003+08:00

Yesterday I changed my mind when I say I want to set my blog private. But today, I think I want to set it on private. And I mean it when I say I will set it to private tonight. So you better give me your email address if you want to keep on viewing my blog. Thanks :)

090909 - break fasting with friends

2009-09-10T20:07:00.002+08:00

Its difficult for me to go out at night since my sister is the type who love to stay at home -.- So when my daddy gave permission to go out, I'm totally happy. Thanks dad :) Okay first we have some little trouble deciding where to eat. Pmpn nak oldtown, laki nak mcd since it's cheaper but they lose :p hehe. Ktrang ajak ramai org tp yg ada just me, Raidah, Nana, Amalina, Yasmin, Fitrah, Acap and Mazrul. Then after break fast, ktrang pegi padang. Aku jadi minah rempit kejap. Minah rempit pakai baju kebaya -.- haha nicee huh? We took alot of pictures together. Let me repeat, A LOT (!) haha. Then budak3 lain dtg. Okay lah meriah sikit tkde lah sunyi. Then bergambar ramai3. Hehe. We were quite high last night. Hahaha. But it was fun. Thanks guys for the great night :) Gosh, I miss them already :'( I will upload the photos in myspace.

Swing your hips and giggles.

Eminem VS Mariah

2009-09-08T13:29:00.006+08:00

I copied this from my tumblr.

Have you hear about Eminem and Mariah? Yeah I think everybody have. I don’t know the true story but my friend told me that Eminem used to have a little something3 with Mariah. Or in this case, a lot of something3. But Mariah didn’t admit it which make this handsome man pissed. So he started writing shitt songs (superman-eminem) about her. Then Mariah replied by singing the obsessed song. And now Eminem is on top by singing his latest hit, The Warning. The song’s rock ! In your face Mariah. I used to like Mariah but since she hurt Eminem’s heart so, to hell you go bitch! Oh and don't forget the watch Beautiful-Eminem music video. HE IS SO DAMN EFFING HOT (!)

I will ever will be Eminem’s number one fan :)

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Ajoo

2009-09-07T18:48:00.002+08:00

dstvsfwrtaghdstfthbsyfgf SUPER HOT !

Since I can't put it in myspace, I'll post it here

2009-09-07T01:44:00.002+08:00

Seriously nampak cam budak ke? :O
I effing took it one day before puasa -.-

What did I do today 6/9

2009-09-06T14:19:00.005+08:00

I went shopping for my baju raya just now. This year theme colour is Brown. My mom make me go to Kompleks which is freaking make me all moody and stuff. One of the reason why I hate going to Kompleks is that there's no aircond. Dah lah sesak nak mati. Semua jalan lambat2. Aku hepuk sorang2 kang. Haihh. Then I saw this LV bag which is really cute and the price is affordable. But nahh I want the original one :P haha.

After that I went to SACC. Naik carik kasut. Tapi tkde :( Benci betul ada kaki mcm itik ni -.- Grr. I saw alot of familiar faces there. Hehe. I manage to bought baju kurung only. Geez. I'm in need of a super cool outfit. AND FAST (!) Oh and I can't wait to get my hands on my soon-to-arrive contact lens :)

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Louis vuitton papillon

2009-09-06T01:39:00.002+08:00

I EFFING WANT THIS ! PLEASE MOM AND DAD? ':(

Farmville

2009-09-05T18:58:00.002+08:00

Hahaha. Comel kan? :P

Tumblr

2009-09-05T02:02:00.001+08:00

Tumblr is my current love ♥

Badass

2009-09-04T21:46:00.005+08:00

Back when I was in primary school, I always wanted to wear the black shoes instead of plain old whitey. I always envy at all of the prefect. So when I reached 13, I went for an interview to become a prefect. And lucky me, I make the cut :') So yeah. Finally I got to wear the black shoes. Hehe. But then I realized that I'm not the prefect type *sigh. Well you know, I'm the breaks the rules type of girl. And being a prefect means you always have to obey the rules. And plus, it is just so hard and tiring and boring. Besides, everybody hates prefect. They called us dog -.- Which is very sickening. So then I resigned. I only got to be a prefect for hmm let's say 5-6 months? Yeah. Time nak resign tuh, cikgu cam berat hati nak kasi :D *wink. Haha. I didn't regret it though. It was a wise choice. Haha. But atleast I got to wear the black shoes right? Only that whats matter :)

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Once a meanie always a meanie

2009-09-02T13:16:00.003+08:00

First of all please forgive me if what I'm about to say contain words that we are not allowed to say time fasting. I couldn't help it.

You think everybody love you? Pstt. You don't know the truth. I hate you. They probably hate you too. Perangai cm hape. Mengutuk org je keje. Bulan ramadhan pun nak mengutuk. Whats your problem? Kau nak kacau hidup aku knp? Aku tak kacau hidup kau pun. In fact, aku TAK PERNAH pun kacau hidup kau. Perangai kau cm org gila, pervert, loser. Aku tak pena kutuk pun. Sedarlah diri tuh sikit. Sumpah kau kacau aku lagi, aku tepek terus. Kau igt kau besa, tinggi, aku takut? HA-HA.

*I know tak cukup pedas. But hey, bulan ramadhan right? I have to watch my mouth :)

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1st day of fasting at school

2009-09-01T20:48:00.005+08:00

School was short. And yet. Pretty boring. Idk why but I don't have that kind of energy today. Rasa lembik gila. And still. Now. Haihh. From after recess, all I did was sleep. Hehe. Cikgu pun tkleh lah blame kan. Bulan puasa. Mana ada org ada tenaga sgt. Oh and I didn't get to spend time with Raidah, Mas and Nabilah :( And even worst, I didn't get to visit RJ :'( Entah mcm mana lah dia skrg. Haihh.

Oh oh. Tonight (!) Taylor Momsen. You guys are soooooooooooooo gotta watch it.

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Happy Independent Day :)

2009-08-31T01:42:00.001+08:00

Yawwwwwww biatches, its independet day (!) Wuhuuuuu. 52 already. Wow. This year celebration is not as meriah as before. Ramadhan kan. But it's okay. We just should be happy that we can celebrate it anyways.

Oh and it is also the LAST day of school break :/ haihh. Not fair. I mean. It felt like it was only yesterday the 1st day of holiday. I'm not ready to fast at school. My class is on the 4th floor. And beg ofcourse berat but I can make it light. Hehe. And oh not to mention that my new class is super duper hotter than before. How on earth can we survive? Heh. I'm just looking forward for ICT class. Got aircond. Ahhh. Nikmat. Hahaha.

Enjoy;

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What did I do today 30/8

2009-08-30T01:32:00.000+08:00

I went to Lanee's house for buka puasa. And my gosh, the hall was big and beautiful. And ofcourse, it was full with Dato' Datin, Tan Sri and Puan Sri. They are very friendly indeed. They got the money, the look and beauty. Same goes to Lanee. She seems smaller than the last time we met. Tiny was there too. She's prettier without skarf :) The food and the atmosphere was fine. But the solat terawih was not. No offense. But lambat sgt lah. And plus panas. Rasa mcm buat 20 rakaat. Padahal 8 je. Haihh. Whatever lah. Overall it was great :)

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2009-08-29T00:47:00.001+08:00

People, I think I'm changing to tumblr :) But I will post something here too.
So if you have tumblr and want to follow me or view, just ask for my url :)

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I'm into monkey now

2009-08-28T13:35:00.001+08:00

AWESOME (!)

♥

Officially my idol

2009-08-28T03:28:00.009+08:00

She's hot, she's cool, she's different and she is Taylor Michel Momsen :) Was born in St Louis, Missouri on July 26th 1993. It's hard for me to believe that she's only 16. Like the same age as me? :O Weird. She looks so matured. Like Cinta Laura (from Upik abu dan Laura), she's 16 too. But looks so matured. Okay back to Taylor. She is so different from the other. Her style, her character. I'm inspired :') Not only she can act, but also sing. But she's not really that good at singing but her voices rock! Seriously. Unlike Miley Cyrus -.- Erghhh. I like her hair the most <333333 Effing love itt. I have the volume but not the style -.- Haihh. Anyways, can't wait to catch her on gossip girls :) Mwahhh. Here, hear her sing :)

Oh btw, HAPPY SWEET 16 BIRTHDAY FARAH ASYURA AMIR. Also known as my twin :P haha b, have a great birthday !

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